How hard is it to get some forms signed?!?

So Christmas was rubbish as I worked most of it and have been very depressed. What has been going on the last few weeks - not a lot is the answer! My adoption SW phoned me after the initial visit and said that she had forgotten to get me to sign the consent forms for her to write to my GP for my medical and to my neurologist. I said that I gave verbal consent, but it was not good enough, she would post me the forms. A week later and she still had not posted them, so I drove to her office to sign the forms. First of all, she only had one for me to sign, I had to ask her if there was a second one, she was not sure and had to check. Good job I asked as there was a form for my GP! I feel that I am going to struggle with how incompetent people are and how slow all of this process is! I have my medical booked with my GP 9th Jan 2013. I really hope it goes ok. I am running a few miles 4 times a week at the moment, trying to get my BMI down from 25.5 to 24 maximum and I am really thinking of offering money or even sexual favours to get a clean bill of health from my GP!! I am not only running to lose weight and get fit, I am running as I feel I have a point to prove. Yes I have MS, No I do not let it affect me, and Yes I can adopt a baby, is the message I am trying to get a across by saying 'look at me running, I can do this!" Crazy right?!? My DH thinks so, but it is a great way to focus my stress and energy and for me to feel like I am doing something as I hate not being in control! I am so scared that I wil be rejected for adoption.......

Turns out MS is a BIG problem

We had my intial meeting with the adoption social worker this afternoon. I was very nervous and my house has nevery been cleaner or tidier! There was a lot of questions asked about why we want to adopt, our IVF, our interests, family, support, child care experience. All of those questions were fine until we came to my MS. The mood changed, became quite negative and I started to get a bad feeling. Basicly we can not move forward until I have had a medical with my GP, the agency has contacted my neurologist and then all the info is gathered on me and sent to an indepent medical advisor for review. I am gutted as this will take ages for all the paperwork to be done etc, and so we will not make it on to the February prep course. She said everything else about us is great and the house is great, it is just my MS. It is always my health that holds us back. I also hate the stigma that is around MS. No one can tell I have it, I seem fine and I am fine, just a bloody label.

We have an initial visit booked!!

Things have moved quickly! We have gone from thinking about adoption to information evenings to all of a sudden applying to an agency and having an initial visit booked with an adoption social worker next Thursday!! So exciting and scary how quickly this has moved in the last few weeks. This weekend we have mostly been tidying and cleaning the house!! I really want to make a good impression and get on the February prep course. We shall see what the adoption social worker says. Any hints, tips, advice on what to expect from the initial visit?