FET #4 booked!!

Baseline scan booked for 10th August! That is not very far away! My next scan will be 17th August with intralipids. The only drugs I will be having are steriods, intralipids and prontogest injections. I will be testing for a LH surge and transfer my last embryo if my lining is thick enough. I am excited that we are cycling again, but scared as this is most likely our last go. I am starting to accept that the chances of ever being pregnant are slim. What I wonder is whether I will ever be ok with this? Knowing something and accepting something is two different things.

AF at last!

I had sex yesterday to try to bring on AF and I POAS (expensive one) and sure enough AF showed up! I am dissapointed that I am not pregnant and annoyed that I have had to wait 2 weeks to find this out. I am also pissed that my timings are completely screwed for the next FET for the next few months. Who knows when I will get to use my last frostie. I need to do this last cycle, I need to do this for closure, to know that I have tried everything. I need this to be able to move onto the next step which will be adoption. All this waiting is just delaying the inevitable.....

Still no AF!

I amm 11 days late. I have tried to make AF arrive by POAS (cheap one) on Monday. It was negative. I have also had sex and still no AF. I'm bored of waiting and starting to think what if.... Such a mind f**k!

1 week late

I have been waiting for AF to show for the last week but she is no where to be seen! DH says I have PMT, me I'm just pissed off at the world! Now some people may say that being late is good, I could be pregnant. I very much doubt. I have crap Fallopian tubes and I need to have sex to be PG (well twice was all we had last month!) I have not peed on a stick, I won't waste my money. Everytime the thought pops into my head that I could be, I push it out straight away. No point depressing myself more when the old witch shows! One thing that this does show, is that my body and my cycles are screwed up from all of my drugs. Inam trying to work out when to cycle for my next FET. I am thinking August so my body can normalise a little. It seems so far away though!