Or take my blood that is.
I went to the clinic this afternoon to have a blood taken for my immune blood test. Not only am I £510 lighter, I am also 8 vials of blood lighter! Very fitting for Halloween I thought!!
I hope something comes up, I hope we have an answer as to why we have had these 4 failed cycles.
Monday, 31 October 2011
Saturday, 29 October 2011
Trying to mend
Not much has been going on with me this past week or so. I have been at work, been keeping busy and trying not to get to down and depressed.
What hasn't helped is that I keep getting a lot of pain in my right ovary, and although I thought my bitch from hell period was over, I keep randomly bleeding for a few hours here and there.
I have my immune blood test on Monday and then my WTF appointment with my Dr to discuss why the hell I have had 2 failed IVF and 2 failed FET and have been told every time what great lining I have, what great embryo's I have blah blah etc.
What hasn't helped is that I keep getting a lot of pain in my right ovary, and although I thought my bitch from hell period was over, I keep randomly bleeding for a few hours here and there.
I have my immune blood test on Monday and then my WTF appointment with my Dr to discuss why the hell I have had 2 failed IVF and 2 failed FET and have been told every time what great lining I have, what great embryo's I have blah blah etc.
Wednesday, 19 October 2011
We have a plan, sort of...
My case was reviewed at the clinic today and I got a call this evening. After having 2 failed IVf cycles and 2 failed FET's at the age of 26-27 and having good numbers of eggs and decent embryo's my clinic has suggested that I have immune testing before next cycle. I am very happy about this as I was going to push for this before doing anything more. I will be having the blood test on 31st Oct and then a follow up appointment on the 15th November to talk about results, plan of action etc.
I have used up all my goes on the NHS and so now we are going to have to pay. I am very lucky to have the cycles on the NHS, but we never thought that we would need more than this. We thought, wow, thats generous, who needs all of those goes. Oh how niave we were! :(
I have used up all my goes on the NHS and so now we are going to have to pay. I am very lucky to have the cycles on the NHS, but we never thought that we would need more than this. We thought, wow, thats generous, who needs all of those goes. Oh how niave we were! :(
Monday, 17 October 2011
BFFN again
Don't know why I am so suprised. I was secretly thinking it had worked this time, but yet again my body has let me down. I did not want to test today, I loved being PUPO, but my clinic told me today was my OTD. I now have the horrible ordeal of calling clinic again to tell them I am not pregnant (and wonder if I ever will be).
Sushi and wine tonight I think and another box of tissues to cry into
Sushi and wine tonight I think and another box of tissues to cry into
Friday, 14 October 2011
8dp5dt and off on holiday
I am starting to go a little crazy now with the 2ww. I get to test on Monday which will be 11dp5dt. I am not tempted to POAS and will not until OTD, but does not mean my mind is not wondering and buzzing.
I have had a few cramps, but not a lot else. I know that this does not mean anything as last cycle I had loads of PG signs and was not PG.
I go away on holiday with DH and our 2 fur babies tomorrow morning for 5 nights to a self catering cottage in Cornwall. I cant wait, cant wait to get away and to not be at work when I find out of this cycle has worked or not.
I have had a few cramps, but not a lot else. I know that this does not mean anything as last cycle I had loads of PG signs and was not PG.
I go away on holiday with DH and our 2 fur babies tomorrow morning for 5 nights to a self catering cottage in Cornwall. I cant wait, cant wait to get away and to not be at work when I find out of this cycle has worked or not.
Monday, 10 October 2011
4dp5dt (FET #2)
I have remained relatively (?!) sane the past 4 days but I have still been thinking 'what if...' a lot. What if It does work? What if it doesn't work?
I haven't been obsessing with symptoms as is way too early, but just to note I have had sore boobs and a few cramps. Both of which could be due to my progesterone suppositories.
I am loving the fact that I am PUPO, I talk to my embryo's, rub my belly and imagine them implanting. This is not because I am crazy (much!), but because I have been told positive thinking and visualisation helps! I figure, I will try anything to get me a baby!!
I haven't been obsessing with symptoms as is way too early, but just to note I have had sore boobs and a few cramps. Both of which could be due to my progesterone suppositories.
I am loving the fact that I am PUPO, I talk to my embryo's, rub my belly and imagine them implanting. This is not because I am crazy (much!), but because I have been told positive thinking and visualisation helps! I figure, I will try anything to get me a baby!!
Friday, 7 October 2011
Surviving the 2ww
Thank you to I wanna be preggo for posting this, I had to copy it!!
Surviving The Two Week Wait
Oh I must survive the 'Two Week Wait',
To see what will be, what is our fate.
It should not be bad, I'll keep busy with lots,
At least it's better than all those darn shots!
Day 1 I'll go for a nice calming walk,
And with my DH try not to talk
About kids and plans and names and such,
And try not to get our hopes up too too too much.
Day 2 Ahh, for today, I'll do some nice light cleaning,
And try not to think and keep myself from seeing,
Everyone around me with their cute babies,
And try to stop the incessant 'maybes'.
Day 3 with the In-Laws we'll dine,
Who don't know what's up, think everything is fine.
"No, thank you, I'll pass, I won't have the wine."
Stop looking at me, Mother-in-Law! No, it's not a sign!
Day 4 I'll look at my closet again,
Maybe a quick clean, then onto the den,
You know a crib would look great right over there,
Wait! Stop thinking about that, it just isn't fair!
Day 5, good grief! Will this day never end?
Where is my phone, can I call a friend?
And was that a twinge, or just anticipation?
Or am I one of those women who can actually feel implantation?
Day 6 I'm fine, I'm not going mad
But I keep looking at my dear husband, trying to see a Dad.
I have to keep busy, keep my mind occupied,
On trivial things, not what maybe happening inside!
Day 7, oh JOY, oh bliss, we are half way there!
No, I'm not obsessing, I haven't a care,
The first week flew by, I could hardly even tell,
And if you believe that I have a Bridge I can sell...
Day 8, Wait, are my breasts sore tonight?
Or, did I just wear my new bra too tight?
Am I feeling sick, nausea in the morning?
Or was that old expiration date actually a good warning?
Day 9, day 9, everything is fine!
Its not that I'm edgy, I SAID I WAS FINE!
Sorry, I did not mean to snap, but my temper is quick,
Is tomorrow too early to pee on a stick?
Day 10, For one day I'd just like to forget,
Not go crazy with days, my mind to reset.
A good friend she told me, "Remember, try not to dwell!"
Oh give me a break, this two weeks... umm, *Aint swell*!
Day 11, Well what to do, maybe I'll clean again?
Oops, my closet is empty and I blew up the den.
OK, I'll watch some TV to take my mind off the maybes
WHY DOES EVERY STATION ONLY PLAY "SHE'S HAVING A BABY?"
Day 12, good grief, I don't know how I will cope,
I want to be optimistic, to have some hope,
But I am afraid of disappointment, of again this not being the time,
If someone could make days fly, I'll give my last dime!
Day 13 is supposed to be Lucky, they say
Personally I wish it would just go away,
I am done with watching the days crawl by,
I hate all this waiting, too long have we tried.
Day 14, Wait, what? It's finally here?
Today we find out if a baby is near?
Umm, wait, now I don't know if I really want the real truth
I kind-of liked day-dreaming, but betas the proof!
So now it's off to the bathroom I go,
So far so good, I don't see Aunt Flow.
I open the package, pee and it will tell our fate,
Oh dear, now how do I survive this TWO MINUTE WAIT???
Surviving The Two Week Wait
Oh I must survive the 'Two Week Wait',
To see what will be, what is our fate.
It should not be bad, I'll keep busy with lots,
At least it's better than all those darn shots!
Day 1 I'll go for a nice calming walk,
And with my DH try not to talk
About kids and plans and names and such,
And try not to get our hopes up too too too much.
Day 2 Ahh, for today, I'll do some nice light cleaning,
And try not to think and keep myself from seeing,
Everyone around me with their cute babies,
And try to stop the incessant 'maybes'.
Day 3 with the In-Laws we'll dine,
Who don't know what's up, think everything is fine.
"No, thank you, I'll pass, I won't have the wine."
Stop looking at me, Mother-in-Law! No, it's not a sign!
Day 4 I'll look at my closet again,
Maybe a quick clean, then onto the den,
You know a crib would look great right over there,
Wait! Stop thinking about that, it just isn't fair!
Day 5, good grief! Will this day never end?
Where is my phone, can I call a friend?
And was that a twinge, or just anticipation?
Or am I one of those women who can actually feel implantation?
Day 6 I'm fine, I'm not going mad
But I keep looking at my dear husband, trying to see a Dad.
I have to keep busy, keep my mind occupied,
On trivial things, not what maybe happening inside!
Day 7, oh JOY, oh bliss, we are half way there!
No, I'm not obsessing, I haven't a care,
The first week flew by, I could hardly even tell,
And if you believe that I have a Bridge I can sell...
Day 8, Wait, are my breasts sore tonight?
Or, did I just wear my new bra too tight?
Am I feeling sick, nausea in the morning?
Or was that old expiration date actually a good warning?
Day 9, day 9, everything is fine!
Its not that I'm edgy, I SAID I WAS FINE!
Sorry, I did not mean to snap, but my temper is quick,
Is tomorrow too early to pee on a stick?
Day 10, For one day I'd just like to forget,
Not go crazy with days, my mind to reset.
A good friend she told me, "Remember, try not to dwell!"
Oh give me a break, this two weeks... umm, *Aint swell*!
Day 11, Well what to do, maybe I'll clean again?
Oops, my closet is empty and I blew up the den.
OK, I'll watch some TV to take my mind off the maybes
WHY DOES EVERY STATION ONLY PLAY "SHE'S HAVING A BABY?"
Day 12, good grief, I don't know how I will cope,
I want to be optimistic, to have some hope,
But I am afraid of disappointment, of again this not being the time,
If someone could make days fly, I'll give my last dime!
Day 13 is supposed to be Lucky, they say
Personally I wish it would just go away,
I am done with watching the days crawl by,
I hate all this waiting, too long have we tried.
Day 14, Wait, what? It's finally here?
Today we find out if a baby is near?
Umm, wait, now I don't know if I really want the real truth
I kind-of liked day-dreaming, but betas the proof!
So now it's off to the bathroom I go,
So far so good, I don't see Aunt Flow.
I open the package, pee and it will tell our fate,
Oh dear, now how do I survive this TWO MINUTE WAIT???
Thursday, 6 October 2011
PUPO!!
I am PUPO!! I had my transfer at 12pm and had two embryos transferred. One blastocyst was looking good, cells already differentiating! The other one is borderline, only 50% of cells alive, but still aparently viable. I am very pleased. Now just the dreaded 2ww! OTD is 17th Oct.
I am laying on the sofa, keeping my legs (and fingers and toes!) crossed!
Thank you to all for my well wishes, means a lot.
I am laying on the sofa, keeping my legs (and fingers and toes!) crossed!
Thank you to all for my well wishes, means a lot.
Wednesday, 5 October 2011
It is an endometrioma!
I had another scan this morning and the 'fluid filled tube' is actually an endometrioma! I am very pleased, although I already knew it was as it has been diagnosed before!
My transfer is set for 12pm tomorrow and I am hoping my blastocysts survive the thaw. Cant wait to be PUPO again!
My transfer is set for 12pm tomorrow and I am hoping my blastocysts survive the thaw. Cant wait to be PUPO again!
Tuesday, 4 October 2011
Progesterone kicking in?
I am starting to get sore b00bs and quite a bit of wind which I can only put down to the progesterone suppositories. At least it shows they are working I gues!!
I have another scan tomorrow morning to check my lining again and to see if the cyst/endometrioma/fluid filled Fallopian tube is still there and see whether this cycle can go ahead or not. I have decided that if they try to cancel me I will demand to see one of the doctors and get them to scan me rather than leave it up to a nurse to decide. I just hope all us well, but I doubt it will be!
I have another scan tomorrow morning to check my lining again and to see if the cyst/endometrioma/fluid filled Fallopian tube is still there and see whether this cycle can go ahead or not. I have decided that if they try to cancel me I will demand to see one of the doctors and get them to scan me rather than leave it up to a nurse to decide. I just hope all us well, but I doubt it will be!
Sunday, 2 October 2011
Started progesterone
I have finished my injections and I started on my progesterone suppositories last night. This means I am a little closer to my transfer, but everything still hangs on my scan on Wednesday morning.
I am still not feeling very hopeful that this will actually go ahead and to top things off, I have a stinking cold and am working on duty all this weekend, whilst feeling rubbish. I really want to be relaxing so that I can get my body in good shaped for the transfer and 2ww
I am still not feeling very hopeful that this will actually go ahead and to top things off, I have a stinking cold and am working on duty all this weekend, whilst feeling rubbish. I really want to be relaxing so that I can get my body in good shaped for the transfer and 2ww
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