I am over my jealousy about my SIL being pregnant (well maybe still a little jealous!!) and am now getting excited!! I am hoping she has a little girl as I have a nephew and would love a niece. Actually who am I kidding, I want them to have a healthy baby! I am pleased I am now excited for them. I hated the person I was yesterday! I tried to explain to DH but as expected he didn't understand.
Sorry its a short post, am on duty.
CD12, looking for to some quick BD before I go on my business trip. Am hoping I will ovulate early this month. Knowing my luck I will ovulate smack bang in the middle of my trip. I am now think turkey baster?!!? Of course only a joke!
Sunday, 29 March 2009
Saturday, 28 March 2009
PG news, I will be an auntie!
My brother has just announced that my SIL is pregnant! What was the first thing I did? Burst into tears, not tears of joy but jealousy. I am such a bitch! They weren't trying, they are 20 and still have 2 years of college left. I know a baby is a blessing at any time and I would never regret a pleasant surprise like this but I cant help the jealousy. I have been trying and got a BFN and they weren't and have a BFP! Life is just not fair! Thankfully I am home alone in floods of tears, my DH would just not understand why I am so upset.
Jealous bitch being put to one side.....OK.. I am very pleased for them. All my SIL wants is to be a stay at home mum and have lots of children so it is great for her. My brother is also desperate to have a family so they are lucky and are very happy.
The sad thing is that they live in the USA and I love in the UK so I will hardly get to see my niece or nephew and will miss it growing up. I wasn't planning to go back to the USA until they had a baby but didn't think it would be for a few years.
I am still in tears and so jealous!
Jealous bitch being put to one side.....OK.. I am very pleased for them. All my SIL wants is to be a stay at home mum and have lots of children so it is great for her. My brother is also desperate to have a family so they are lucky and are very happy.
The sad thing is that they live in the USA and I love in the UK so I will hardly get to see my niece or nephew and will miss it growing up. I wasn't planning to go back to the USA until they had a baby but didn't think it would be for a few years.
I am still in tears and so jealous!
Thursday, 26 March 2009
Bit early
I had to POAS today for my fertility monitor. I thought this was a bit early seeing that I am on day 9 of my cycle. I normally ovulate on day 16 but was day 15 last cycle. I was really hoping to only use 10 sticks this month so that I have 10 left for next month. I know this could be my cycle that I get my BFP, but I doubt it. I am away at a conference the weekend I am due to ovulate. Is a bit annoying but you never know, if we have sex just before I go and then when I come back the sperm may hang around for my egg? I am only away from Friday morn to Sunday eve.
I have my hospital appointment on the 15 April and am looking forward it as want a chat and suggest HSG etc. The only problem is that I will be due on that day so I may be happy with a BFP or pissed off with a BFN. If AF does arrive I don't think I would be able to make love to the ultrasound wand. It is bad enough trying to insert a tampon, I am doubled over in pain doing that during AF. Also when I had my ultrasound and session with the wand last time I was in so much pain I was in tears and that was mid cycle when I am not usually in pain.
I did bring up the possibility of my DH making love to a cup and he didn't seem overly impressed. I would like a SA done at some point. We all know I have endo but I think DH should get a clean bill of health so we know I am the only one with the problem fertility wise.
I have my hospital appointment on the 15 April and am looking forward it as want a chat and suggest HSG etc. The only problem is that I will be due on that day so I may be happy with a BFP or pissed off with a BFN. If AF does arrive I don't think I would be able to make love to the ultrasound wand. It is bad enough trying to insert a tampon, I am doubled over in pain doing that during AF. Also when I had my ultrasound and session with the wand last time I was in so much pain I was in tears and that was mid cycle when I am not usually in pain.
I did bring up the possibility of my DH making love to a cup and he didn't seem overly impressed. I would like a SA done at some point. We all know I have endo but I think DH should get a clean bill of health so we know I am the only one with the problem fertility wise.
Tuesday, 24 March 2009
Thank you all
Wow, what an amazing response from you all. Thank you all for your support from the previous post, makes me feel welcome here. I really do get so much help from blogging and every one's comments.
However, I just want to clear a few things up. The blog I read inspired my previous post, not because I was necessarily hurt by it, more it was thought provoking regarding how little time I have been TTC in comparison. Actually helps to keeps things in perspective sometimes.
People are in different stages in their TTC and for some people they are going through tough times and are in bad places at the moment. I only hope that their battle is won soon. If we cant put down our feelings here, then where can we?
However, I just want to clear a few things up. The blog I read inspired my previous post, not because I was necessarily hurt by it, more it was thought provoking regarding how little time I have been TTC in comparison. Actually helps to keeps things in perspective sometimes.
People are in different stages in their TTC and for some people they are going through tough times and are in bad places at the moment. I only hope that their battle is won soon. If we cant put down our feelings here, then where can we?
Monday, 23 March 2009
Quick update
AF has stopped thankfully but I still have a fair amount of pain in my belly. Really want to get down to it with DH but in far too much pain. Am worried since coming off the pill my endo has grown back rapidly.
Trying my best to be an iron commenter but is a lot of reading! Am enjoying it though. I did however come across one blog which made me think about this blog and how I am not very far along my TTC journey. I realise I have not been at it that long but I feel you should be able to start a blog about your TTC journey at any point, not just when you are about to lose hope or numerous years down the line. I in no way claim to be infertile, is too early days. I do however have endometriosis and know that this will be a bit of a struggle. Just how much of a struggle I do not know at the moment.
I get great support from so many people and I thank you. It helps. This blog helps, it is a dumping ground for all of my thoughts. If I had no readers I would still continue blogging the same, but readers are great and comments make me happy. Thank you all!
On another note, baked my first lot of banana and choc chip muffins today! (not much of a baker but learning!) They are surprisingly yummy!
Sunday, 22 March 2009
AF still here
CD5 and my period is still here. Normally I am spotting at this point but I am still in quite a bit of pain which is unsual. Thankfully the pain is bearable but is very annoying.
I had a word with DH last night and asked him if he thinks we will ever have a baby. He doesn't have a doubt in his mind which I guess is nice but he has a longer way to fall if we can never conceive. At least me being a pessimist, I am disappointed rarely! Lol
I am making progress with DH regarding getting another dog. We have had our rescue dog for 19 months now and she is wonderful apart from a small minor problems, but sometimes I feel she is lonely and would like a friend. I have told DH before that if I don't get pregnant soon I will get a puppy. He has always said 'No' but today he has agreed once we get a house of our own. I will hold him to that! Of course if I do become pregnant I will not get a puppy as is too much hard work but at least I am wining with DH s l o w l y!!
I am enjoying this ICLW, am trying to become an iron commenter, it is hard work but am coming across lots of great blogs. No where near commenting on every one's yet though!
I had a word with DH last night and asked him if he thinks we will ever have a baby. He doesn't have a doubt in his mind which I guess is nice but he has a longer way to fall if we can never conceive. At least me being a pessimist, I am disappointed rarely! Lol
I am making progress with DH regarding getting another dog. We have had our rescue dog for 19 months now and she is wonderful apart from a small minor problems, but sometimes I feel she is lonely and would like a friend. I have told DH before that if I don't get pregnant soon I will get a puppy. He has always said 'No' but today he has agreed once we get a house of our own. I will hold him to that! Of course if I do become pregnant I will not get a puppy as is too much hard work but at least I am wining with DH s l o w l y!!
I am enjoying this ICLW, am trying to become an iron commenter, it is hard work but am coming across lots of great blogs. No where near commenting on every one's yet though!
Saturday, 21 March 2009
March IComLeavWe
Welcome all. Cant believe it is this time of the month already!! Last month was my first IComLeavWe and I loved it. Was great to find new blogs and get so many great comments. Here is a quick run down of myself. Happy reading and commenting!
- I am 24, married, have a rescue dog and am a Vet
- I have endometriosis and hypothyroidism
- I have had 1 laparoscopy and may have to have another one soon as my endo pain is so bad
- I came off The pill in October and have been TTC since with a BFN every month!
- I have a little OCD
- I am a half empty kinda girl
- All I want in the world is to be pregnant and have a baby but this is proving to be bit of a struggle
I am attempting to be an iron commenter this month but we shall see!!
Friday, 20 March 2009
I could build a house with my sticks
I will soon be back to peeing on a stick everyday to see when I ovulate. I have p****d on so many sticks and I have bought more to pee on! Now I will be peeing for my fertility monitor and on some ovulation sticks!! I want to make sure 100% that I am ovulating. I have also got a BBT so I can take my temperature every morning. I can hide the peeing on a stick from my DH but not sure how he will react when he wakes up to me with a thermometer sticking out of my mouth every morning!
I am getting even more serious about TTC after every cycle. Each BFN seems to spur me on to do more to make this work. I have realised that I want a baby more than anything but I also want to be pregnant. I would definitely consider adoption if it got to that as having a child is so important to me, but I dearly wish to go through the whole pregnancy part first if that is possible. Some of you may understand the feeling/desire/wish to be pregnant and have a little person grow inside of you. Others I am sure are not too fussed about being pregnant, just want a child and family. That is fine, everyone is different, but for me all I dream about is being pregnant and then holding that baby in my arms.
When I was away on my short holiday, my MIL kept trying to bring up when we were going to have a child and what our favourite baby names were etc. DH and I kept brushing her off and changing the subject but she sadly didn't get the hint. She announced over dinner one evening that I will have a little girl. It was all I could do not to strangle her with the table cloth! I just sat there and smiled and said how I would love to have a little girl. I then wanted to go on to say that it may not ever happen and she should be grateful she has one grandson (my nephew) and she would be lucky if she got another grandchild. In some ways I want to tell her we are TTC in the hope she would get off our backs. I know she is the type of person that would then be on our case even more, wanting to know why it wasn't working, watching me like a hawk for any small sign of pregnancy. She already does all of the above so telling her would make things 100 times worse.
AF is still here but thankfully pain and flow has slowed down to a bearable pace!
I am getting even more serious about TTC after every cycle. Each BFN seems to spur me on to do more to make this work. I have realised that I want a baby more than anything but I also want to be pregnant. I would definitely consider adoption if it got to that as having a child is so important to me, but I dearly wish to go through the whole pregnancy part first if that is possible. Some of you may understand the feeling/desire/wish to be pregnant and have a little person grow inside of you. Others I am sure are not too fussed about being pregnant, just want a child and family. That is fine, everyone is different, but for me all I dream about is being pregnant and then holding that baby in my arms.
When I was away on my short holiday, my MIL kept trying to bring up when we were going to have a child and what our favourite baby names were etc. DH and I kept brushing her off and changing the subject but she sadly didn't get the hint. She announced over dinner one evening that I will have a little girl. It was all I could do not to strangle her with the table cloth! I just sat there and smiled and said how I would love to have a little girl. I then wanted to go on to say that it may not ever happen and she should be grateful she has one grandson (my nephew) and she would be lucky if she got another grandchild. In some ways I want to tell her we are TTC in the hope she would get off our backs. I know she is the type of person that would then be on our case even more, wanting to know why it wasn't working, watching me like a hawk for any small sign of pregnancy. She already does all of the above so telling her would make things 100 times worse.
AF is still here but thankfully pain and flow has slowed down to a bearable pace!
Thursday, 19 March 2009
I HATE AF
I have been awake since 2.30am this morn, dozed on and off until 5.30am and been awake since. I have been in so much pain. I cant find a comfortable position to sit/lie down. I am exhausted and feel terrible.
I think my periods are getting worse every cycle. I am really struggling to cope. TMI alert! I am having to change my tampon every 2 hours, even through the night!
Sadly am at work today and on duty tonight. My DH wants me to take day off but I cant
I think my periods are getting worse every cycle. I am really struggling to cope. TMI alert! I am having to change my tampon every 2 hours, even through the night!
Sadly am at work today and on duty tonight. My DH wants me to take day off but I cant
Wednesday, 18 March 2009
It is over now, AF showed
AF showed last night. I am so disappointed, so is DH. No other words to describe how I feel right now other than empty....
So new cycle, new design to blog, new start, another try......
So new cycle, new design to blog, new start, another try......
Monday, 16 March 2009
Not sure if this is a good thing right now
OK, third post of the day, not good! I am sitting here whilst DH is in the bath having a small cry. No wailing or even full blown tears, just a small cry. Could this really be another failed cycle? What happened to the hopeful Nic only a few hours ago?
I have finally caught up on all my blogs and am feeling very depressed. I am sorry to those who are struggling and dealing with losses. Also congratulations to those who have great news. I am however feeling very jealous and emotionally drained. I just don't know whether blogging right now is the best thing. I get so much great support from everyone and it helps me so much. I am just struggling at the moment and don't know what I need.
I was/am so certain that I was PG. I felt so sick this morning and still do. Even the sweet, lovely, wonderful smell of cigarettes smelled horrible this morning and made me feel sick wen I walked past someone smoking!
Maybe I tested early, maybe it was because it wasn't the first pee of the day?
I have finally caught up on all my blogs and am feeling very depressed. I am sorry to those who are struggling and dealing with losses. Also congratulations to those who have great news. I am however feeling very jealous and emotionally drained. I just don't know whether blogging right now is the best thing. I get so much great support from everyone and it helps me so much. I am just struggling at the moment and don't know what I need.
I was/am so certain that I was PG. I felt so sick this morning and still do. Even the sweet, lovely, wonderful smell of cigarettes smelled horrible this morning and made me feel sick wen I walked past someone smoking!
Maybe I tested early, maybe it was because it wasn't the first pee of the day?
Its not over yet
I gave in, I peed on a stick and got a BFN. I know is early days but AF is due from tomorrow. I bought the v expensive HPT's and they still gave me the wrong result!! However, I still have hope, AF has not arrived yet!!!!
My holiday was great, went on lots of lovely walks, swimming, played golf and went bowling. The only problem was that there were so many pregnant people and babies about. It was a constant reminder of what we do not have, yet.
I am still feeling sick, even after 2hours sleep and my BB are so sore. I wish it was because I was pregnant but think I am coming down with something. I really don't want to see AF. Not sure I can cope with the pain and illness
My holiday was great, went on lots of lovely walks, swimming, played golf and went bowling. The only problem was that there were so many pregnant people and babies about. It was a constant reminder of what we do not have, yet.
I am still feeling sick, even after 2hours sleep and my BB are so sore. I wish it was because I was pregnant but think I am coming down with something. I really don't want to see AF. Not sure I can cope with the pain and illness
Back from holiday and feeling v sick
11dpo and have very bad nausea today. Not sure why. A little thought keeps creeping into my head and telling me that I could be pregnant. I push it out very quickly and put it down to my IBS that I have and think maybe it was the cream on my hot chocolate this morning. However when I got home I flew upstairs to find a HPT to take a test and found that I have none! I have decided to wait until tomorrow and test then if AF doesn't show as she is due tomorrow. I may give in however, we all know how poor my self control is!! I am impressed with myself that I did not test over the weekend whilst I was away.
I had a great holiday, way too short but great. I will post about it later as feeling so sick at the moment.
I don't mind feeling this ill if I am pregnant. But if I am not pregnant then WTF is this all about? I feel shit! I am going for a lie down!
I had a great holiday, way too short but great. I will post about it later as feeling so sick at the moment.
I don't mind feeling this ill if I am pregnant. But if I am not pregnant then WTF is this all about? I feel shit! I am going for a lie down!
Thursday, 12 March 2009
Going away
I am off on holiday tomorrow for a long weekend and I really cant wait. I am feeling so down, exhausted and in desperate need of a break. Need this holiday for my sanity. Will be lovely to take my dog for long walks in the forest and have a swim in the pool.
On a different note; I cant believe how many babies there are about at the moment. Keep getting PG news and people telling me how their sister is expecting a boy etc. Thats great, I am pleased for them but fuck am I jealous. It makes me feel sad and jealous and makes me a horrible person. I of course smile and act happy but I am sick of PG news and babies everywhere. I cant even watch my favourite soaps anymore as there is a pregnant person in each one and they all happened 'by accident'. Just to say I hate the phrase 'accident' in reference to a pregnancy. I would call it a pleasant suprise!! How would the child feel knowing you called him/her an accident?
7dpo and still feel normal, I am hating this 2ww, I am so impatient, I cant stand this wait. A few bloggers are getting BFP and I am so happy for them (no sarcasm at all, am truthly happy) and am keeping my fingers crossed that everything remains good. It has made me wonder whether this is a good sign for me this cycle as its working for so many, or whether the quota for BFP's this month has been filled and I will have to wait my turn. I realise this is completely stupid way to think, but hey my mind is on over drive at the mo. Good job I am going on holiday!!!!
Reading back over what I have written I realise I have been rambling! Hey, whats new! Just to say I wont be back till Tuesday so sorry for no comments etc. Hope everyone has a good weekend.
On a different note; I cant believe how many babies there are about at the moment. Keep getting PG news and people telling me how their sister is expecting a boy etc. Thats great, I am pleased for them but fuck am I jealous. It makes me feel sad and jealous and makes me a horrible person. I of course smile and act happy but I am sick of PG news and babies everywhere. I cant even watch my favourite soaps anymore as there is a pregnant person in each one and they all happened 'by accident'. Just to say I hate the phrase 'accident' in reference to a pregnancy. I would call it a pleasant suprise!! How would the child feel knowing you called him/her an accident?
7dpo and still feel normal, I am hating this 2ww, I am so impatient, I cant stand this wait. A few bloggers are getting BFP and I am so happy for them (no sarcasm at all, am truthly happy) and am keeping my fingers crossed that everything remains good. It has made me wonder whether this is a good sign for me this cycle as its working for so many, or whether the quota for BFP's this month has been filled and I will have to wait my turn. I realise this is completely stupid way to think, but hey my mind is on over drive at the mo. Good job I am going on holiday!!!!
Reading back over what I have written I realise I have been rambling! Hey, whats new! Just to say I wont be back till Tuesday so sorry for no comments etc. Hope everyone has a good weekend.
Tuesday, 10 March 2009
DH is convinced
DH and I were talking this morning about us booking a holiday at the end of summer. He asked when the due date would be if I was pregnant. He is convinced that I am pregnant. Of course it is possible but he seems to think that because we had lots of sex at the supposed right time I am therefore pregnant!
I am worried, because I ovulated a few days early, AF may come early when I am away on holiday. I hope not because I get so unwell with AF and I will have many hours drive home and not sure how I will cope. I am also hoping to do lots of swimming on holiday and I wont do that if I have AF. I know you can swim with tampons etc but I just cant stand it.
My BB's are no longer sore and I am feeling normal at the moment. I have to say though, I do have a little bit of hope this month, we did have loads of BD at the supposed right time . I guess I am just wanting it to be the month I get pregnant. I cant face another AF and another cycle of trying to convince DH to have lots of BD with me, it really kills the mood!!
I am worried, because I ovulated a few days early, AF may come early when I am away on holiday. I hope not because I get so unwell with AF and I will have many hours drive home and not sure how I will cope. I am also hoping to do lots of swimming on holiday and I wont do that if I have AF. I know you can swim with tampons etc but I just cant stand it.
My BB's are no longer sore and I am feeling normal at the moment. I have to say though, I do have a little bit of hope this month, we did have loads of BD at the supposed right time . I guess I am just wanting it to be the month I get pregnant. I cant face another AF and another cycle of trying to convince DH to have lots of BD with me, it really kills the mood!!
Monday, 9 March 2009
Boobs hurt
4 dpo and my boobs are sore. I of course read into this immediately and got my hopes up. You will be pleased to hear I squashed any hopes or thoughts straight away. It is early days. Even if I am pregnant I would not have implanted yet.
Not much to report otherwise. Work was busy today, didn't have a lunch break as usual. I really need to look after my body. I think my job and eating habits definitely have some input into my TTTC. Saying that, I am on duty again tomorrow night. Tonight has however been relaxing in front of the TV and surfing the net, just what I needed!
I really cant wait till my long weekend away.
God I HATE this 2ww, it goes so slow!!!!!
Not much to report otherwise. Work was busy today, didn't have a lunch break as usual. I really need to look after my body. I think my job and eating habits definitely have some input into my TTTC. Saying that, I am on duty again tomorrow night. Tonight has however been relaxing in front of the TV and surfing the net, just what I needed!
I really cant wait till my long weekend away.
God I HATE this 2ww, it goes so slow!!!!!
Saturday, 7 March 2009
Terrible weekend so far
Been on duty since Friday morning and it has been manic. I got called out Friday eve and then again at 1.30am this morning. Annoyingly I got back in bed just gone 3 am this morning and DH asked why I was cold. I told him I had just been to a sheep that was having problems giving birth and had to help it. He couldn't remember me getting the phone call or leaving for work or coming back!! Cant believe he manages to sleep through my very loud phone and me getting up and getting change! Doesn't bode well for when we do have a baby, he will sleep through all the crying!!
Have been busy most of the day today as well. I am worried as I had to lamb that sheep this morning and this afternoon I had to do a sheep Cesarean. Now pregnant women are not allowed to be around sheep, especially pregnant sheep as there is a risk of catching toxoplasmosis which can cause miscarriages. Now I know I am only 2dpo so who knows at such a early time. What if this was the month, and I have just ruined my chances and I now will not become pregnant. I mentioned this to DH and he obviously thinks I am mad!
I am so tired, need to have a shower and go to bed but is a little early at the moment. Weekends on duty like these really make me worry about being pregnant and being a vet. Once I get pregnant I will refuse to do anything with pregnant sheep but not sure how that would go down with my bosses, they are not very sympathetic. Also if I get called out at 1.30am and am pregnant my boss would have to go do it rather than me which would piss them off!! Also the long hours nearly kill me now, what will it be like once I am pregnant?
On a good note, DH and I are going away for a long weekend on Friday, cant wait. It is what is getting me through these last few days of work.
Have been busy most of the day today as well. I am worried as I had to lamb that sheep this morning and this afternoon I had to do a sheep Cesarean. Now pregnant women are not allowed to be around sheep, especially pregnant sheep as there is a risk of catching toxoplasmosis which can cause miscarriages. Now I know I am only 2dpo so who knows at such a early time. What if this was the month, and I have just ruined my chances and I now will not become pregnant. I mentioned this to DH and he obviously thinks I am mad!
I am so tired, need to have a shower and go to bed but is a little early at the moment. Weekends on duty like these really make me worry about being pregnant and being a vet. Once I get pregnant I will refuse to do anything with pregnant sheep but not sure how that would go down with my bosses, they are not very sympathetic. Also if I get called out at 1.30am and am pregnant my boss would have to go do it rather than me which would piss them off!! Also the long hours nearly kill me now, what will it be like once I am pregnant?
On a good note, DH and I are going away for a long weekend on Friday, cant wait. It is what is getting me through these last few days of work.
Friday, 6 March 2009
I am so grumpy!!!
Not sure why I am grumpy but I am in a terrible mood. My poor DH, he is geting the brunt of it! I think it has a lot to do with me being on duty this weekend but it cant be only that. I am 1dpo so I shouldn't really be like this!
I have started to get hopeful that this could be the month we get our BFP. I tried being optimistic and pessimistic, neither of which worked! I am feeling confident this cycle, most prob because we have had the most sex this month. My DH told me he was hopeful this month, he keeps mentioning me being pregnant, so he is convinced this is it. I hope I don't have to break bad news to him again when AF shows up!
I told DH last night that I was going to keep my hospital appointment and talk to my doctor about having a HSG. He was fine about that but said I may not need it as I maybe pregnant. I wish I had his optimism and was relaxed about this as much as he is.
A small rant: I feel like I am doing all the hard work in this baby making process, I have to push DH to have sex and he complains a little and has a go at me.
On a side note: I realise I am lucky that I have a lot of things on my side with this TTC like my age as I am only 24. Sometimes when I read other blogs I feel like I am whining and complaining when others have been battling for so much longer. This blog is just a dumping ground of my own personal feelings to save my poor DH from my stressing!
I have started to get hopeful that this could be the month we get our BFP. I tried being optimistic and pessimistic, neither of which worked! I am feeling confident this cycle, most prob because we have had the most sex this month. My DH told me he was hopeful this month, he keeps mentioning me being pregnant, so he is convinced this is it. I hope I don't have to break bad news to him again when AF shows up!
I told DH last night that I was going to keep my hospital appointment and talk to my doctor about having a HSG. He was fine about that but said I may not need it as I maybe pregnant. I wish I had his optimism and was relaxed about this as much as he is.
A small rant: I feel like I am doing all the hard work in this baby making process, I have to push DH to have sex and he complains a little and has a go at me.
On a side note: I realise I am lucky that I have a lot of things on my side with this TTC like my age as I am only 24. Sometimes when I read other blogs I feel like I am whining and complaining when others have been battling for so much longer. This blog is just a dumping ground of my own personal feelings to save my poor DH from my stressing!
1 dpo and exhausted
I ovulated yesterday according to my fertility monitor. 2 Days early but never mind. Means I was able to do lots of BD before this weekend of work and on call.
A little TMI info alert: we have had sex 3 nights in a row and it has nearly killed us!! We are normally a once a week kinda couple, twice sometimes. We have had sex 4 times this week, 3 of which has been three nights in a row. My DH is exhausted and sick of sex and I have a big bruise on the inside of my thigh!! I am wondering if we are having enough sex though. We BD on the 2 days leading up to ovulation and on the day of ovulating. Surely that's pretty good?! How much BD did/do you guys do?
Now bring on the horrible 2ww! Thankfully going away next weekend for a long weekend with DH and the in-laws and my dog. shall be a nice break. I will not take anything with me as I will be itching to do a HPT but I will not allow myself!
A little TMI info alert: we have had sex 3 nights in a row and it has nearly killed us!! We are normally a once a week kinda couple, twice sometimes. We have had sex 4 times this week, 3 of which has been three nights in a row. My DH is exhausted and sick of sex and I have a big bruise on the inside of my thigh!! I am wondering if we are having enough sex though. We BD on the 2 days leading up to ovulation and on the day of ovulating. Surely that's pretty good?! How much BD did/do you guys do?
Now bring on the horrible 2ww! Thankfully going away next weekend for a long weekend with DH and the in-laws and my dog. shall be a nice break. I will not take anything with me as I will be itching to do a HPT but I will not allow myself!
Wednesday, 4 March 2009
ovulating a little early?
I am on cycle day 15 and I saw my little egg with peak fertility this morn! I was so happy but it doesn't usually appear till day 17. Oh well I am happy as did the BD last night, just means I will have to carry on BD tonight and tomorrow night!
Thanks to all who have left comments. I think I have made up my mind, if I don't get pregnant this month I will go see my gynae in April when I have my appointment, have a chat to him and ask about a HSG. If he says no, I will go back to my GP and get a referral to another place for a HSG. If it may make me more fertile then I would def like to give it a go before having another lap which would put me back a few months.
I feel excited for some reason. Mostly because of my peak fertility but also because I have a plan in place. I am one of those people who have to have a plan or have a goal. It keeps me going, makes me feel a little more in control.
Thanks to all who have left comments. I think I have made up my mind, if I don't get pregnant this month I will go see my gynae in April when I have my appointment, have a chat to him and ask about a HSG. If he says no, I will go back to my GP and get a referral to another place for a HSG. If it may make me more fertile then I would def like to give it a go before having another lap which would put me back a few months.
I feel excited for some reason. Mostly because of my peak fertility but also because I have a plan in place. I am one of those people who have to have a plan or have a goal. It keeps me going, makes me feel a little more in control.
Sunday, 1 March 2009
Talked about the elephant in the room
DH was very spontaneous this morn with initiating a BD! This was great, he hasn't been very spontaneous recently. Sadly I am not in my fertile window yet, but it doesn't matter, the more BD the better as long as we do not peak too soon again!
Afterwards, we were talking and I said how great it would be to be pregnant and have a baby growing inside my belly. DH agreed and started to rub my belly, was a nice moment as we both thought about the baby we so desperately want.
I then asked DH why we don't talk about TTC and my hospital appointment in April and he admitted he doesn't want me to get stressed out. He doesn't want me to have another laparoscopy because it was so hard on us last time. He had to look after me as I have no one else, and I think it upset him to see me in so much pain. He wants me to put off the hospital appointment till June as he says we would have then had a really good go at TTC and he will then understand me going for a lap if I don't become PG. The thing is, the NHS waiting time is 7 months which is ages. I guess we can be TTC during that time and if it happens I cancel my lap but I am not very good at waiting!
I think I want a HSG to see if my tubes are blocked, if so I can then justify having a laparoscopy etc. I don't know if I can really demand this from my doctor or not? I don't know how the NHS would really feel if I started to demand things like this. I guess there is always private but I don't know how much that would cost and we are meant to be saving money for a house and we don't really have much due to the way the world is at the moment.
Why is it I want everything to happen NOW and it never does?
Afterwards, we were talking and I said how great it would be to be pregnant and have a baby growing inside my belly. DH agreed and started to rub my belly, was a nice moment as we both thought about the baby we so desperately want.
I then asked DH why we don't talk about TTC and my hospital appointment in April and he admitted he doesn't want me to get stressed out. He doesn't want me to have another laparoscopy because it was so hard on us last time. He had to look after me as I have no one else, and I think it upset him to see me in so much pain. He wants me to put off the hospital appointment till June as he says we would have then had a really good go at TTC and he will then understand me going for a lap if I don't become PG. The thing is, the NHS waiting time is 7 months which is ages. I guess we can be TTC during that time and if it happens I cancel my lap but I am not very good at waiting!
I think I want a HSG to see if my tubes are blocked, if so I can then justify having a laparoscopy etc. I don't know if I can really demand this from my doctor or not? I don't know how the NHS would really feel if I started to demand things like this. I guess there is always private but I don't know how much that would cost and we are meant to be saving money for a house and we don't really have much due to the way the world is at the moment.
Why is it I want everything to happen NOW and it never does?
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