The red witch is here

Well prontogest definitely keeps your period at bay. Only now, 5 days after my BFFN do I get my period. As ever it is heavy and painful and I feel like shit. The last few days have been hard, I am so depressed but people wouldn't know it. I always put a brave face on, pretend all is fine bit is not a healthy way to be. I am not fine. I am slowly realising that I will never be pregnant. I am realising that I need to come to terms with this. How do I go about that? How do I become ok about never being pregnant? Will I ever come to terms with it?

BFN again, it's getting boring now

I am 10dp5dt and I saw those horrible words 'not pregnant' after I POAS at 6 am this morning. This is getting a bit too repetitive and boring now. 6 cycles, 6 BFNs. I am gutted and am starting to accept this will never happen. The chances of the lone frostie we have left sticking is very slight. I don't know what to do with myself. I'm just sitting starring into space as my mind goes into overdrive.

4dp5dt FET#3 - time is going so slow!

One week until OTD. As ever, no beta, just POAS and then the dreaded call to the clinic to say its negative, or hopefully positive?!? Not much has gone on with me, ive have not had any symptoms like previous cycles. Previous. Uncles have all been negative, but I always had a lot of side effects from the drugs. This time, no side effects other than sore b00bs before transfer. The only thing I have noted is the odd belly cramps since transfer, but the transfer this time was uncomfortable and I have endometriosis, so not reading into it. OTD 21st may, one week time! Time is going soooo slow!

PUPO on my birthday!

Yesterday both my embryos, 11 and 13 survived the thaw and were transferred! They were top quality and starting to differentiate! I have had a few cramps since but was from the procedure I think. Today I shall be lying on sofa watching my new box set and doing some crochet! Oh yeah, I am also 28 today!

Transfer is tomorrow!

My transfer for FET #3 is tomorrow! I am looking forward to being PUPO, but nervous and anxious to find out whether number 11 and 13 survive the thaw. This is the names of my embabies this time round. We are leaving 12 frozen for a very last go if we ever need it. Long story as to why we are using 11 and 13 and not 12, but essentially 12 is v good quality and will hopefully cope on his/her own for final thaw. I feel positive at the mo as we are trying so many new things this time e.g. Steriods and prontogest. It's giving us the best chance. I can also feel the prontogest PIO working as I had sore b00bs this morn. The injections in my ass are. It too bad, sore afterwards and bruise a lot, but anything for a baby, right?!?

Scan and intralipids

I had another scan today and my intralipids infusion. The scan was fine, my lining is thick and ready for transfer. This means I start my progesterone in oil injections tomorrow night(Saturday) and my transfer is scheduled for Thursday 10th may at 12 noon (ish!). I'm am pleased everything is going well, but nervous about the PIO injections. I have been taking 10mg prednisolone everyday for the last week and I'm feeling fine. I was expecting horrible side effects with the steriods, but so far all is great except I'm drinking more water and therefore peeing more. I am looking forward to being PUPO again, but not looking forward to being closer to the end of this journey if it does not work.