What if it never happens?

I belong to a group on fert friends where all the members are part of my clinic. It is great, we are all very supportive, friendly and even meet up which is nice. There has been a lot of activity on it recently and quite a few BFP's which is brilliant. I am so happy for all of the girls, but I a worried it will never be me. One of my biggest fears is never getting pregnant, never experiencing that, never having a baby of my own, never being able to breastfeed.

I am so convinced that I will never get pregnant, but at the same time not willing to accept it which sounds strange I know!

I am going to see a counsellor tomorrow, she is part of the clinic but it is all confidential. She only deals with couples with IF and going through treatments etc which should be good as she should understand quite well.

I need to get my head straight before this FET. I am struggling at the moment and do not like where my head is at.

What if though I can never have a baby.......