I need chocolate....!

I am on this fat fighters diet and I had my weigh in last night. I had lost 1.5 pounds, so that's 6.5 pounds I have lost so far. Not bad. Problem is, I am so bored of fruit and vegetables and being healthy! Its fine most of the time but right now I have the biggest chocolate craving ever! I am having a fruity cereal bar instead! Yum!

Work is not quite taking away all of my thoughts regarding lack of TTC. I think I am doing well, I think I have pushed all of my wants and needs for a baby to one side for now and then I see a baby, a bump or something on TV and then all of my wants come flooding back to me and I find I get a little emotional. I just blame it on the medication and push everything away into a dark deep place and try to lock the door once more. Not healthy I know, but how else does one deal with wanting something so much you cant explain it and knowing you definitely cant have it for 6 months, but you may not ever be able to have it? I think I could cope better if I knew I was putting myself through this and there definitely would be a baby at the end. I would be more at peace with it. I guess you all know how I am feeling right now. A baby is never a certain thing, despite how much we want it.