I am so lost

Depression is sinking in fast. Being in limbo, waiting to find out when I will have more tests, having the worst period ever at the moment, wondering what horrible disease I have; MS or neurosarcoidosis and having to cancel my FET again. What do I have to look forward to?

The support group from my clinic is great, we meet now and again, chat online and have become friends. We were all booked in to cycle round about the same time, I got canceled (again) and now I am left behind. The clinic has had a major improvement in their success rates and it turns out that all the girls have got their BFP's over the last couple of months! It is great, I am so pleased for them all, but what about me? I feel so left behind. I feel everyone is moving on, becoming pregnant, which is great, but I am not.

I do not know what to do with myself. I do not know how I can keep going on like this. I hate my job, I hate my life, I hate how barren I am.