Where has Nic gone?

I feel like an empty shell. I am depressed, I am moody, I am grumpy, I am down, I am not myself.

If I am like this before I even start my injections, what am I going to be like once I have all those hormones pumping around my system?

I think I am having a hard time dealing with the fact that my friend is PG but hasnt told me yet. I am, trying hard not let on that I know, trying hard not to be jealous. It is alwful, I should not be jealous, she is a fellow IFer, she had a misscarriage, she deserves this baby. I am very happy for her. Its just something about being with her all day at work knowing she is pregnant that is bringing me down.

I have no patience, I am sick of waiting for a baby, sick of waiting for IVF and I am sick of feeling like this. I do not like myself at the moment.