Baby clothes shopping...

.... caused me to nearly have a breakdown! I went shopping this morning and thought I would buy a cute outfit for my SIL's baby. At the moment they do not want to know the sex, but that may change! I went into Mothercare, one of our big mother and baby stores over here and was looking for a cute, neutral outfit. I walked around, saw lots of babies and pregnant people, got hot, itchy and had to get out. I couldn't cope. All the cute baby products was just too much. Reminding me what I did not have. I was nearly in tears. Tears of jealousy, tears of self pity, tears of frustration.

I left with nothing and decided that shopping on the Internet was the way forward! I don't become so emotionally attached if it is online. No touching the outfits and more importantly no pregnant people or babies! I dont know why I reacted so badly, I expected to see babies and bumps everywhere. I guess I am not coping very well.

On another note, I bought 'Navigating the land of IF' as I feel I now qualify as being IF, or at least heading in that direction. Actually, I don't want the IF label yet, maybe just difficulty in conceiving. Anyway, I hope the book helps me to cope.

As suggested, I am also going to make a sign saying 'its not me, its the hormones' whenever I get emotional or grumpy, or angry. Remind myself that this is not really me, but also remind myself it will be worth it in the end. Great advice, thank you.