wow, its been a while

I think this must be the longest I have gone without posting, other than if I go away. I have stepped back a little from this blog. It has only been temporary, but I needed the break. I needed to stop thinking about IF, about my cancelled FET, about whether I will ever have a baby.....

I am still waiting for an MRI of my brain and spine. I now have a date for the 7th April. Until I have this I am in limbo. I do not know why I am still numb and tingling from the waist down. I do not know if this will be forever, if this will progress, if this will prevent me from carrying a baby. I realise that I need to actually get PG, but not knowing if I can try is a hard thing to take.