Running; a great distraction

I am back into my keep fit regime again. Have started running in the mornings before work. I feel quite refreshed and ready for the day after my run. It is also a great distraction as I find my mind does not go into overdrive when I run, my mind is pretty much blank which is good. I have so much whirling around my head at the moment. Usual TTC stuff, work stuff, hospital appointment on Wednesday and now buying a house stuff!! Have found a house we love and am trying to sort a mortgage and then possibly put an offer in. So frustrating though as it is bank holiday weekend and everywhere is shut!! I am surprised my head does not explode with all the thinking, worrying and stressing I do!!

On a good note, I have lost 3 pounds this week!

On my run this morning I noticed some twinges and a bit of pain in my belly. I know it wasn't gas as went toilet before I ran (sorry TMI!) so I started to wonder.... Could it be implantation pain? I am on day 7 PO. I also noticed on my run that I could smell everything, the petrol leaking from a car, smell from a BBQ from yesterday, the blossom, cut grass and the pineapple in my orange and pineapple squash when I got back. Now I know you must all be thinking I am crazy right now, but I have never had a sense of smell. This is most likely due to me smoking for 9 years. I did however give up smoking 6 months ago and maybe my sense of smell is starting to come back and I noticed it on my run and when I got back because I was breathing deeper. Who knows. I could be speculating that I have a heightened sense of smell due to a another reason but I will not be silly enough to think that for more than 1 second................ OK that thought is now pushed from my mind!!

Going away

I am off on holiday tomorrow for a long weekend and I really cant wait. I am feeling so down, exhausted and in desperate need of a break. Need this holiday for my sanity. Will be lovely to take my dog for long walks in the forest and have a swim in the pool.

On a different note; I cant believe how many babies there are about at the moment. Keep getting PG news and people telling me how their sister is expecting a boy etc. Thats great, I am pleased for them but fuck am I jealous. It makes me feel sad and jealous and makes me a horrible person. I of course smile and act happy but I am sick of PG news and babies everywhere. I cant even watch my favourite soaps anymore as there is a pregnant person in each one and they all happened 'by accident'. Just to say I hate the phrase 'accident' in reference to a pregnancy. I would call it a pleasant suprise!! How would the child feel knowing you called him/her an accident?

7dpo and still feel normal, I am hating this 2ww, I am so impatient, I cant stand this wait. A few bloggers are getting BFP and I am so happy for them (no sarcasm at all, am truthly happy) and am keeping my fingers crossed that everything remains good. It has made me wonder whether this is a good sign for me this cycle as its working for so many, or whether the quota for BFP's this month has been filled and I will have to wait my turn. I realise this is completely stupid way to think, but hey my mind is on over drive at the mo. Good job I am going on holiday!!!!

Reading back over what I have written I realise I have been rambling! Hey, whats new! Just to say I wont be back till Tuesday so sorry for no comments etc. Hope everyone has a good weekend.