Dreaming of a baby

Every night for the last 3 nights I have dreamt that I am pregnant. The dreams have been great, I have had a bump, I have felt my baby moving and growing inside me. I then wake up and realise it is not true, only a dream. I am devastated. The dreams felt so real, I felt my baby but there is no baby, never was a baby.

My injection side effects are in full swing, my poor DH! One minute I am happy and energetic and cant sit down, the next minute I am in a deep depression. Right now I am feeling pretty down. I keep telling myself that I only have one more injection, and then my 3rd operation and then I cant start TTC again.

I miss TTC. That sounds silly I know, as it is so bloody stressful and upsetting, but at least there is that hope, that small chance that maybe, just maybe I could be pregnant. You can entertain the idea for a while, read into any small gut twinges (even if it is just the curry you had last night!),pretend that the pain is implantation pain, and that your sore breasts are because you are pregnant, not just the first warning sign of AF. 6 months of being on a break is a bloody long time and is bloody boring. I want my chance of having a baby.

Crap weekend, updated

DH is away, I am on duty, I have been busy, I am tired, I have a migraine, I am emotional, I have pains in my belly and I still have another 56 hours of being on duty! I have already been on duty for 52 hours!!

Sorry, this is a complaining post! I am just feeling tired, emotional and lonely! I am hating the side effects of my 4th injection and I am hating being on duty. With DH being away it is getting a bit too much for me!

I also feel being on duty for 108 hours straight is illegal but what can I do about it?!?! If I complain and refuse to work I can lose my job!

****update****
I am a vet and work all day and night on call. I am able to rest and sleep in between emergencies but can get called out any time of day and night. I have been very busy, got called out at 5 am this morning and had a late night last night. Am very tired!!

Bad weekend

Work has been terrible so far this weekend. My stress levels have been through the roof and I have broken down in tears 3 times! The breakdowns have all been in secret of course, I don't generally cry in public! I am never usually this emotional but everything I touch seems to go wrong at the mo. I don't know if I am very emotional because I am tired, stressed, of pregnant?

I am impressed with my self control so far, not taken a real pregnancy test yet, dont know how long it will last though!