IVF consult went well!

I was only with the doctor for 15mins but I left very happy. He reviewed my situation and DH's semen analysis and said we go straight to IVF! There is no point with IUI as my tubes are blocked from my endo. He gave me a choice of three clinics which I can pick from. He will send me a letter with the choice, I then send them back, he refers me to the clinic and then I will start IVF approx 3 months after that! The waiting time is a lot shorter than I thought!

He gave me a chick run down of what they do but it was only brief. He said my endo may flare up due to the injections. I will have two injections; one is FSH and the other is to stop me ovulating. They normally do a three day transfer and will only transfer one on my 1st cycle as I'm only 25. They will freeze any embryo's left over. If it does not work I then get a frozen cycle on the nhs, another fresh cycle and then another frozen cycle. I essentially get 4 cycles on the nhs! I really hope that this works!

This means that in June I could be going through IVF! I am so excited!

Excited about IVF appointment on Monday!

Time seems to be dragging by at the moment. I want it to hurry up and be Monday afternoon so we can have our IVF appointment! DH thinks this will be a 10 min appointment where we get told we need IVF and we will be put on the waiting list. I hope it is more than that, I hope they will give me the basics on the protocols they use etc. I think I have my hopes up too much. I am expecting to have the whole run down of what will go on and when, but DH is right, it will most probably be another quick chat about how we need to be put on the waiting list etc.

Nothing much else to report except my period lasted a full 7 days this month which is crap. I felt awful with it. I was in so much pain, I could hardly function. That pisses me off as it feels like my last lap was pointless, they removed all my endo my arse. I was in as much pain with my period as I was before my lap.

I will let you all know how Monday goes. I hope I wont be too disappointed! It is one step closer to my baby!

Need help from you guys re: IVF

I had my CD5 bloods today, it went well; she found the vein straight away, was pretty easy for once!

I have my IVF appointment on the 1st Feb, one week away! I am so excited but nervous at the same time!

I dont normally do this but, I need some help from you guys regarding what questions to ask at this appointment. It is basically a chat about what will happen, at what clinic etc. I dont feel very prepared which is not me. I usually have a whole list of questions, but for some reason I have none! I think I am just feeling overwhelmed! Please help! Thanks!

She lost the baby

My friend C who had the bleed on Friday had a scan today. Sadly there was no heart beat. She has lost her baby at 11 weeks. We are all devastated. I feel so upset and useless. I want to take her pain away but nothing I do or say will ever make this better. What adds to this pain is that they have been trying for 2 years. A fellow IF looked like she had beaten it, but fucking IF won again.

A quick update

I have my FSH, LH etc CD5 blood test tomorrow. I hate having my blood taken as I have shit veins, but I am excited as it means things are moving forward, it is another thing ticked off the list, another step closer to IVF and my baby!

Things between DH and I are a little strained at mo. He has a lot on at work and is very stressed and I am very down at the mo and work is shit. I think the strain, stress and worry at the mo is taking its toll on us, we are pushing each other away instead of pulling together. We have been through these periods before, periods where we withdraw into ourselves and it is not good. The intamacy and affection disappears and we become housemates instead of husband and wife. That is not to say we stop loving each other, we just need alone time. I hate it and he hates it too, but it is our way of coping. I do worry though that one day the period will not end and we will just stop being together. We have talked, got things off our chest and now we will be fine again and it will be us again.

Hope she is ok

I have just found out my IRL friend/collegue has been desperately trying for a baby for 2 years. Today she suddenly rushed herself to hospital as she was having a 'bleed'. I later found out she is 10 1/2 weeks pregnant. I really hope there is nothing wrong with her baby. I have been so emtional about it all day and been on the verge of tears many times. I think it's because I've just found out she is a fellow IF, fell pregnant and now might be losing it. I really hope it's nothing to worry about

CD1? - peeved *updated*

Woke up with the worst cramps ever this morning, my belly was aching all night, but this morning the pain was awful, I has to some pills straight away. I couldn't even string a sentence together, the pain was so consuming. I presume my period will arrive any second, I presume I am not pregnant!

I was really hoping to have less painful periods after my lap, doesn't seem like it is going to be the case! I will update if AF does show, I expect she is just around the corner.

The very crap thing if today is cd1 (other than not being pg!) is that I might not be able to get my day 2-5 bloods done as that is due tomorrow or over the weekend and my doctors need at least a week to book any form of appointment! So much for being fast tracked to IVF if I can't actually get the tests done!

*Update*
AF appeared this eve, bollox! That is all hope for this cycle gone!