DH and I were talking this morning about us booking a holiday at the end of summer. He asked when the due date would be if I was pregnant. He is convinced that I am pregnant. Of course it is possible but he seems to think that because we had lots of sex at the supposed right time I am therefore pregnant!
I am worried, because I ovulated a few days early, AF may come early when I am away on holiday. I hope not because I get so unwell with AF and I will have many hours drive home and not sure how I will cope. I am also hoping to do lots of swimming on holiday and I wont do that if I have AF. I know you can swim with tampons etc but I just cant stand it.
My BB's are no longer sore and I am feeling normal at the moment. I have to say though, I do have a little bit of hope this month, we did have loads of BD at the supposed right time . I guess I am just wanting it to be the month I get pregnant. I cant face another AF and another cycle of trying to convince DH to have lots of BD with me, it really kills the mood!!
Tuesday, 10 March 2009
Monday, 9 March 2009
Boobs hurt
4 dpo and my boobs are sore. I of course read into this immediately and got my hopes up. You will be pleased to hear I squashed any hopes or thoughts straight away. It is early days. Even if I am pregnant I would not have implanted yet.
Not much to report otherwise. Work was busy today, didn't have a lunch break as usual. I really need to look after my body. I think my job and eating habits definitely have some input into my TTTC. Saying that, I am on duty again tomorrow night. Tonight has however been relaxing in front of the TV and surfing the net, just what I needed!
I really cant wait till my long weekend away.
God I HATE this 2ww, it goes so slow!!!!!
Not much to report otherwise. Work was busy today, didn't have a lunch break as usual. I really need to look after my body. I think my job and eating habits definitely have some input into my TTTC. Saying that, I am on duty again tomorrow night. Tonight has however been relaxing in front of the TV and surfing the net, just what I needed!
I really cant wait till my long weekend away.
God I HATE this 2ww, it goes so slow!!!!!
Saturday, 7 March 2009
Terrible weekend so far
Been on duty since Friday morning and it has been manic. I got called out Friday eve and then again at 1.30am this morning. Annoyingly I got back in bed just gone 3 am this morning and DH asked why I was cold. I told him I had just been to a sheep that was having problems giving birth and had to help it. He couldn't remember me getting the phone call or leaving for work or coming back!! Cant believe he manages to sleep through my very loud phone and me getting up and getting change! Doesn't bode well for when we do have a baby, he will sleep through all the crying!!
Have been busy most of the day today as well. I am worried as I had to lamb that sheep this morning and this afternoon I had to do a sheep Cesarean. Now pregnant women are not allowed to be around sheep, especially pregnant sheep as there is a risk of catching toxoplasmosis which can cause miscarriages. Now I know I am only 2dpo so who knows at such a early time. What if this was the month, and I have just ruined my chances and I now will not become pregnant. I mentioned this to DH and he obviously thinks I am mad!
I am so tired, need to have a shower and go to bed but is a little early at the moment. Weekends on duty like these really make me worry about being pregnant and being a vet. Once I get pregnant I will refuse to do anything with pregnant sheep but not sure how that would go down with my bosses, they are not very sympathetic. Also if I get called out at 1.30am and am pregnant my boss would have to go do it rather than me which would piss them off!! Also the long hours nearly kill me now, what will it be like once I am pregnant?
On a good note, DH and I are going away for a long weekend on Friday, cant wait. It is what is getting me through these last few days of work.
Have been busy most of the day today as well. I am worried as I had to lamb that sheep this morning and this afternoon I had to do a sheep Cesarean. Now pregnant women are not allowed to be around sheep, especially pregnant sheep as there is a risk of catching toxoplasmosis which can cause miscarriages. Now I know I am only 2dpo so who knows at such a early time. What if this was the month, and I have just ruined my chances and I now will not become pregnant. I mentioned this to DH and he obviously thinks I am mad!
I am so tired, need to have a shower and go to bed but is a little early at the moment. Weekends on duty like these really make me worry about being pregnant and being a vet. Once I get pregnant I will refuse to do anything with pregnant sheep but not sure how that would go down with my bosses, they are not very sympathetic. Also if I get called out at 1.30am and am pregnant my boss would have to go do it rather than me which would piss them off!! Also the long hours nearly kill me now, what will it be like once I am pregnant?
On a good note, DH and I are going away for a long weekend on Friday, cant wait. It is what is getting me through these last few days of work.
Friday, 6 March 2009
I am so grumpy!!!
Not sure why I am grumpy but I am in a terrible mood. My poor DH, he is geting the brunt of it! I think it has a lot to do with me being on duty this weekend but it cant be only that. I am 1dpo so I shouldn't really be like this!
I have started to get hopeful that this could be the month we get our BFP. I tried being optimistic and pessimistic, neither of which worked! I am feeling confident this cycle, most prob because we have had the most sex this month. My DH told me he was hopeful this month, he keeps mentioning me being pregnant, so he is convinced this is it. I hope I don't have to break bad news to him again when AF shows up!
I told DH last night that I was going to keep my hospital appointment and talk to my doctor about having a HSG. He was fine about that but said I may not need it as I maybe pregnant. I wish I had his optimism and was relaxed about this as much as he is.
A small rant: I feel like I am doing all the hard work in this baby making process, I have to push DH to have sex and he complains a little and has a go at me.
On a side note: I realise I am lucky that I have a lot of things on my side with this TTC like my age as I am only 24. Sometimes when I read other blogs I feel like I am whining and complaining when others have been battling for so much longer. This blog is just a dumping ground of my own personal feelings to save my poor DH from my stressing!
I have started to get hopeful that this could be the month we get our BFP. I tried being optimistic and pessimistic, neither of which worked! I am feeling confident this cycle, most prob because we have had the most sex this month. My DH told me he was hopeful this month, he keeps mentioning me being pregnant, so he is convinced this is it. I hope I don't have to break bad news to him again when AF shows up!
I told DH last night that I was going to keep my hospital appointment and talk to my doctor about having a HSG. He was fine about that but said I may not need it as I maybe pregnant. I wish I had his optimism and was relaxed about this as much as he is.
A small rant: I feel like I am doing all the hard work in this baby making process, I have to push DH to have sex and he complains a little and has a go at me.
On a side note: I realise I am lucky that I have a lot of things on my side with this TTC like my age as I am only 24. Sometimes when I read other blogs I feel like I am whining and complaining when others have been battling for so much longer. This blog is just a dumping ground of my own personal feelings to save my poor DH from my stressing!
1 dpo and exhausted
I ovulated yesterday according to my fertility monitor. 2 Days early but never mind. Means I was able to do lots of BD before this weekend of work and on call.
A little TMI info alert: we have had sex 3 nights in a row and it has nearly killed us!! We are normally a once a week kinda couple, twice sometimes. We have had sex 4 times this week, 3 of which has been three nights in a row. My DH is exhausted and sick of sex and I have a big bruise on the inside of my thigh!! I am wondering if we are having enough sex though. We BD on the 2 days leading up to ovulation and on the day of ovulating. Surely that's pretty good?! How much BD did/do you guys do?
Now bring on the horrible 2ww! Thankfully going away next weekend for a long weekend with DH and the in-laws and my dog. shall be a nice break. I will not take anything with me as I will be itching to do a HPT but I will not allow myself!
A little TMI info alert: we have had sex 3 nights in a row and it has nearly killed us!! We are normally a once a week kinda couple, twice sometimes. We have had sex 4 times this week, 3 of which has been three nights in a row. My DH is exhausted and sick of sex and I have a big bruise on the inside of my thigh!! I am wondering if we are having enough sex though. We BD on the 2 days leading up to ovulation and on the day of ovulating. Surely that's pretty good?! How much BD did/do you guys do?
Now bring on the horrible 2ww! Thankfully going away next weekend for a long weekend with DH and the in-laws and my dog. shall be a nice break. I will not take anything with me as I will be itching to do a HPT but I will not allow myself!
Wednesday, 4 March 2009
ovulating a little early?
I am on cycle day 15 and I saw my little egg with peak fertility this morn! I was so happy but it doesn't usually appear till day 17. Oh well I am happy as did the BD last night, just means I will have to carry on BD tonight and tomorrow night!
Thanks to all who have left comments. I think I have made up my mind, if I don't get pregnant this month I will go see my gynae in April when I have my appointment, have a chat to him and ask about a HSG. If he says no, I will go back to my GP and get a referral to another place for a HSG. If it may make me more fertile then I would def like to give it a go before having another lap which would put me back a few months.
I feel excited for some reason. Mostly because of my peak fertility but also because I have a plan in place. I am one of those people who have to have a plan or have a goal. It keeps me going, makes me feel a little more in control.
Thanks to all who have left comments. I think I have made up my mind, if I don't get pregnant this month I will go see my gynae in April when I have my appointment, have a chat to him and ask about a HSG. If he says no, I will go back to my GP and get a referral to another place for a HSG. If it may make me more fertile then I would def like to give it a go before having another lap which would put me back a few months.
I feel excited for some reason. Mostly because of my peak fertility but also because I have a plan in place. I am one of those people who have to have a plan or have a goal. It keeps me going, makes me feel a little more in control.
Sunday, 1 March 2009
Talked about the elephant in the room
DH was very spontaneous this morn with initiating a BD! This was great, he hasn't been very spontaneous recently. Sadly I am not in my fertile window yet, but it doesn't matter, the more BD the better as long as we do not peak too soon again!
Afterwards, we were talking and I said how great it would be to be pregnant and have a baby growing inside my belly. DH agreed and started to rub my belly, was a nice moment as we both thought about the baby we so desperately want.
I then asked DH why we don't talk about TTC and my hospital appointment in April and he admitted he doesn't want me to get stressed out. He doesn't want me to have another laparoscopy because it was so hard on us last time. He had to look after me as I have no one else, and I think it upset him to see me in so much pain. He wants me to put off the hospital appointment till June as he says we would have then had a really good go at TTC and he will then understand me going for a lap if I don't become PG. The thing is, the NHS waiting time is 7 months which is ages. I guess we can be TTC during that time and if it happens I cancel my lap but I am not very good at waiting!
I think I want a HSG to see if my tubes are blocked, if so I can then justify having a laparoscopy etc. I don't know if I can really demand this from my doctor or not? I don't know how the NHS would really feel if I started to demand things like this. I guess there is always private but I don't know how much that would cost and we are meant to be saving money for a house and we don't really have much due to the way the world is at the moment.
Why is it I want everything to happen NOW and it never does?
Afterwards, we were talking and I said how great it would be to be pregnant and have a baby growing inside my belly. DH agreed and started to rub my belly, was a nice moment as we both thought about the baby we so desperately want.
I then asked DH why we don't talk about TTC and my hospital appointment in April and he admitted he doesn't want me to get stressed out. He doesn't want me to have another laparoscopy because it was so hard on us last time. He had to look after me as I have no one else, and I think it upset him to see me in so much pain. He wants me to put off the hospital appointment till June as he says we would have then had a really good go at TTC and he will then understand me going for a lap if I don't become PG. The thing is, the NHS waiting time is 7 months which is ages. I guess we can be TTC during that time and if it happens I cancel my lap but I am not very good at waiting!
I think I want a HSG to see if my tubes are blocked, if so I can then justify having a laparoscopy etc. I don't know if I can really demand this from my doctor or not? I don't know how the NHS would really feel if I started to demand things like this. I guess there is always private but I don't know how much that would cost and we are meant to be saving money for a house and we don't really have much due to the way the world is at the moment.
Why is it I want everything to happen NOW and it never does?
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