Started my FET meds!

Today is CD3 and I have started my progynova 3x 2mg and my 30iu suprecur (lupron). I am feeling tiredand have a headache, surely side effects can't have started already! I think it's just because I have been so stressed and not slept well.

I am sadly on duty all this weekend. Hope I am not too busy so I can look after myself and nor have too much stress or pressure on me. Two of my co-workers are leaving end of November meaning I will be working a 1:3 outof ours emergency cover nights and weekends ad well as my normal 54 hour week! I am worried work will be too much for me and it will be detrimental to my ttc and potential pregnancy. Oh how I wish I had a simple, easy, stress free and not physical job sometimes!

I am so excited and hopeful about this cycle. I really hope it works. I want my June 2011 baby!!

This cycle is going ahead!

Had another scan today. Great news, the cyst has shrunk a little, they think it's an inactive corpus luteum. I am starting on suprecur(lupron) and 6mg oestrogen tomorrow. I have another scan in 10 days and hopefully FET a few days latter!

I am so pleased we can go ahead and not had to delay. Of course, if I had to go on the pill I would have done, I want my body to be right and ready.

I am now so excited and hopeful. All my hopes ate pinned on this cycle. Of it doesn't work I am going to fall and crash so badly.

AF is here!

Never thought I would be so pleased to see her! My period arrived at about 5am, only four and a half days late! I am feeling crap and in loads of pain, but pleased to have it here. I have another scan tomorrow morning to see if the b**t**d cyst has gone. I doubt it, miracles don't happen to me.

Scan today but still no AF *updated*

Still no AF and pregnancy test was negative. I called the clinic and they still want me to have a scan to see what is going on. I shall update in a bit.

*update*

My scan was not great, my lining is too thick which is not a surprise as I have not had a period. The bad news is that lefty ovary has a big ass cyst on it. I am pissed off. My FET is delayed at the mo. I am to wait for my period, call the clinic and book another scan. If the cyst has gone we will carry on with the FET as planned. If not I will have to go on the pill. If that does not work then I guess the will have to aspirate it. I am dreading that as I presume it is the same procedure as a retrieval and that was bad for me last time.

I am so devastated. The fact that we had two frosties, the fact that we could do a FET so soon has helped me to have something to focus on, to remain calm(ish), to remain hopeful(ish). Now I feel that hope and calm slowly slipping away.

Where the hell are you AF, you are never 4 days late. Hurry up and come and tell the bloody cyst to piss off!

Anyone had a cyst on your ovary and what was done about it? How did it affect your cycle and IVF/FET?

Where are you AF?

I have never wanted to get my period so badly! It was due Thursday pm and Saturday PM it is still not here! I am panicking. Has IVF screwed up my cycles? I am meant to be having my baseline scan for my FET on Monday. What do I do if my period does not show?

As far as the obvious goes, I cant be pregnant as we have not had sex during my fertile time as DH was away on business. The only way I could be pregnant was if my IVF did actually work, I imagined my period last month and I am 8 weeks pregnant. Oh if only that was true! That could be why I have put on a few pounds?!?

Question about FET and assisted hatching

I am waiting for AF to turn up. I should be on CD1 tomorrow. I am worried that AF will be late. I need to call the clinic tomorrow and book a baseline scan for Monday. I am hoping that all will be well and they will book it even if AF is not here. I am feeling twinges in my belly though, AF is not far off.

I am doing a FET with 5 day blastocysts. Do they try to do it to match your natural cycle? If so, they would be doing the FET on CD15 and I do not normally ovulate until CD16. That is not right is it?

Another question: Is it normal to do assisted hatching? My clinic does it automatically. Hopefully this is a good thing. I presume it will increase the chances of implantation.

I am so excited but nervous that we will be cycling again so soon!!

A quick update:

I have not posted for a few days as I am sick of writing 'poor me' posts and writing about nothing. Sadly I still do not have anything of any substance to write! I am in limbo, I am waiting. I ovulated this weekend but DH was away and we were having a month off. Such a strange and frustrating time. We should be TTC, not doing nothing!

I am awaiting AF to show and then I get my baseline booked in ready for my FET.

I am very excited about the FET, but I am also very scared. Scared of them not surviving the defrosting, scared of getting a BFN, scared of having to go through an IVF cycle and egg retrieval etc. Mostly scared of not ever having a baby.

I am struggling with my friend at work who is pregnant. She is having her 20 week scan a couple of days before my FET. She is happily pregnant and getting bigger. I am pleased for her but am jealous. I hate myself for it. She had her 12 week scan a couple of days before my IVf transfer. It is hard she is reaching great milestones and I am still trying to get pregnant. She knows of my IF troubles and she is asking how I am and is not doing anything to upset me on purpose, it is just the usual she is pregnant and I am not issues.