My DH has gone back to work and so I am home alone with the dogs, resting. I have been feeling a little better each day which is good, but I have to be careful not to do too much too soon.
My belly has finally started to go down as the gas is going and I have been able to go to toilet a fair bit. I no longer have the 6 month belly look which is good. The only time I want a bump is when I have a baby in there!
My MIL and FIL has been over all weekend and it has been a great help, but I am pleased to have the house back to myself. My MIL asked whether they thought I could have kids. I said I dont know, I only have one tube that works so there is a chance but it is decreased. She told me I should get on the IVF list as soon as possible as the waiting list is long. I havent had a proper conversation with DH as to whether we will go down this route straight away, so I am certainly not going to have it with my MIL. I know she means well but she is also nosey and a gossip and I dont want everyone knowing my business. If we try IVF I dont want anyone to know. DH's nan then rang to find out how I was and asked all the same questions. I wanted to scream how much I want a kid and how we have been trying but I dont know if it will happen. Instead I acted indifferent, its easier that way at the moment
Showing posts with label MIL. Show all posts
Showing posts with label MIL. Show all posts
Monday, 30 November 2009
Tuesday, 9 June 2009
The MIL
The trip to the IL's was thankfully uneventful. I had geared myself up for the questions, the comments and had come backs ready and a little speech in case the MIL started going on about IVF, grandchildren etc. Thankfully nothing, they asked how I was doing and that was all!
The insensitive comment came from DH's grandma. I told her about my op etc, she asked about kids and I told her it may be difficult, may need IVF etc. She then said to me 'well, we still want grandchildren from you'. OMG! I am working on it! I will do my best!
I am healing well from my lap, the wounds look good, I am on my feet and feeling better. I still cant bend properly or lift heavy things, but feeling better.
On another note; Maddy is doing better, her chest wounds where we did the surgery are healing nicely, but the wounds on her back legs are taking their time. She is a nervous wreck though, poor girl. She is getting lots of cuddles from me though!
The insensitive comment came from DH's grandma. I told her about my op etc, she asked about kids and I told her it may be difficult, may need IVF etc. She then said to me 'well, we still want grandchildren from you'. OMG! I am working on it! I will do my best!
I am healing well from my lap, the wounds look good, I am on my feet and feeling better. I still cant bend properly or lift heavy things, but feeling better.
On another note; Maddy is doing better, her chest wounds where we did the surgery are healing nicely, but the wounds on her back legs are taking their time. She is a nervous wreck though, poor girl. She is getting lots of cuddles from me though!
Sunday, 7 June 2009
Maddy update
Maddy is a little better this morning. She is very sore still, but the shock has decreased which is good. I am worried about walking her when she gets better as she is already a nervous girl due to her past history and me rescuing her. This attack is really going to put her back for a while. Thank you all for your concern!
We are off to visit the in-laws this afternoon, they live 30mins drive away. Maddy loves them so will cheer her up. I am not looking forward to seeing my MIL due to her constant questions and IVF comment (see below). I really hope that she doesn't bring the topic up. This is the first time seeing them since my lap and I cant/wont cope with the interrogation today.
We are off to visit the in-laws this afternoon, they live 30mins drive away. Maddy loves them so will cheer her up. I am not looking forward to seeing my MIL due to her constant questions and IVF comment (see below). I really hope that she doesn't bring the topic up. This is the first time seeing them since my lap and I cant/wont cope with the interrogation today.
Sunday, 26 April 2009
Mother in law
Note: some swearing in this post, sorry!
Been over the in-laws tonight. Although it is great to see them, DH and I always leave feeling a little bit pissed. Tonight is no exception for a few reasons which I cant/ wont go into except...... If I hear the phrase 'when I get another grandchild' and then a stare one more time I am going to scream! My MIL kept going on about BB my nephew and when she gets another grandchild she will do this and that etc. I am sitting there nodding, smiling, pretending that we are not ready for kids yet, got my career to think about etc. Fuck my career! If I had to give up being a vet forever to have a baby I would.
All I want to do is scream at my MIL: We have been trying for a baby and it hasn't happened yet, why the fuck do you think I am having a laparoscopy, so I have a chance of getting pregnant! I am feeling sensitive at the mo and should ignore what my MIL says, easier said than done!
Been over the in-laws tonight. Although it is great to see them, DH and I always leave feeling a little bit pissed. Tonight is no exception for a few reasons which I cant/ wont go into except...... If I hear the phrase 'when I get another grandchild' and then a stare one more time I am going to scream! My MIL kept going on about BB my nephew and when she gets another grandchild she will do this and that etc. I am sitting there nodding, smiling, pretending that we are not ready for kids yet, got my career to think about etc. Fuck my career! If I had to give up being a vet forever to have a baby I would.
All I want to do is scream at my MIL: We have been trying for a baby and it hasn't happened yet, why the fuck do you think I am having a laparoscopy, so I have a chance of getting pregnant! I am feeling sensitive at the mo and should ignore what my MIL says, easier said than done!
Friday, 20 March 2009
I could build a house with my sticks
I will soon be back to peeing on a stick everyday to see when I ovulate. I have p****d on so many sticks and I have bought more to pee on! Now I will be peeing for my fertility monitor and on some ovulation sticks!! I want to make sure 100% that I am ovulating. I have also got a BBT so I can take my temperature every morning. I can hide the peeing on a stick from my DH but not sure how he will react when he wakes up to me with a thermometer sticking out of my mouth every morning!
I am getting even more serious about TTC after every cycle. Each BFN seems to spur me on to do more to make this work. I have realised that I want a baby more than anything but I also want to be pregnant. I would definitely consider adoption if it got to that as having a child is so important to me, but I dearly wish to go through the whole pregnancy part first if that is possible. Some of you may understand the feeling/desire/wish to be pregnant and have a little person grow inside of you. Others I am sure are not too fussed about being pregnant, just want a child and family. That is fine, everyone is different, but for me all I dream about is being pregnant and then holding that baby in my arms.
When I was away on my short holiday, my MIL kept trying to bring up when we were going to have a child and what our favourite baby names were etc. DH and I kept brushing her off and changing the subject but she sadly didn't get the hint. She announced over dinner one evening that I will have a little girl. It was all I could do not to strangle her with the table cloth! I just sat there and smiled and said how I would love to have a little girl. I then wanted to go on to say that it may not ever happen and she should be grateful she has one grandson (my nephew) and she would be lucky if she got another grandchild. In some ways I want to tell her we are TTC in the hope she would get off our backs. I know she is the type of person that would then be on our case even more, wanting to know why it wasn't working, watching me like a hawk for any small sign of pregnancy. She already does all of the above so telling her would make things 100 times worse.
AF is still here but thankfully pain and flow has slowed down to a bearable pace!
I am getting even more serious about TTC after every cycle. Each BFN seems to spur me on to do more to make this work. I have realised that I want a baby more than anything but I also want to be pregnant. I would definitely consider adoption if it got to that as having a child is so important to me, but I dearly wish to go through the whole pregnancy part first if that is possible. Some of you may understand the feeling/desire/wish to be pregnant and have a little person grow inside of you. Others I am sure are not too fussed about being pregnant, just want a child and family. That is fine, everyone is different, but for me all I dream about is being pregnant and then holding that baby in my arms.
When I was away on my short holiday, my MIL kept trying to bring up when we were going to have a child and what our favourite baby names were etc. DH and I kept brushing her off and changing the subject but she sadly didn't get the hint. She announced over dinner one evening that I will have a little girl. It was all I could do not to strangle her with the table cloth! I just sat there and smiled and said how I would love to have a little girl. I then wanted to go on to say that it may not ever happen and she should be grateful she has one grandson (my nephew) and she would be lucky if she got another grandchild. In some ways I want to tell her we are TTC in the hope she would get off our backs. I know she is the type of person that would then be on our case even more, wanting to know why it wasn't working, watching me like a hawk for any small sign of pregnancy. She already does all of the above so telling her would make things 100 times worse.
AF is still here but thankfully pain and flow has slowed down to a bearable pace!
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