FET tomorrow!!

I am so excited and nervous!! The clinic called to confirm they were defrosting both of my embies tomorrow morning. I should have a call by 10am to confirm they have survived and then should be going in about 1pm for the transfer!!

This cycle has been a rocky ride, I hope that means the ending will be good and we get to transfer both and that they stick!!

I wish to say congratulations to my last IVf cycle buddy Julia for her BFP!! I am so pleased for you! I really hope that means we will both be PG togther! Hope this is my cycle as well!!

Another scan! An Endometrioma

I called my clinic this moirning about my flash bleed on Saturday. I managed to get another scan. My lining is looking good at 8.4mm and there is no fluid in my uterus. It looks like my 'cyst' on my left ovary is a endometrioma which keeps bleeding.

Apparently the endometrioma and the random bleeds will not affect my FET and implantation. I want to believe this but I am still worried that this cycle is doomed from the start.

I have been told I need to rest. What does that mean? Is it stict bed rest or light duties or what? The nurse didnt say and I forgot to ask, had so many other things on my mind.

Anyone have a endometrioma that has not been a problem with getting pregnant? What kind of rest if any were you put on?

When will this rollercoaster end? I really hope it ends in a BFP! Not sure how much more stress and up and downs I can take!

Not another bleed....

I cant believe I am having another bleed like the one yesterday morning. It seems to have nearly stopped but I am panicking. Why am I bleeding? What does this mean?

Should I cancel the FET as this just does not feel right?

DH said to me this evening: 'maybe because this cycle is going badly it will end in positive becuase last cycle was nearly perfecvt and it ended in a negative'. I replied 'sadly life does not work that way!' Bless DH for trying to stay hopeful when I am not feeling any hope.

To top things off my dog Maddy is poorly sick, got gastritis I think, hope its nothing more major.

Scan went ok(ish)

Had a different nurse today (again) and so had to explain my history again. She asked me how I was doing and I told her not good. I had bad guts, losing my hair, bad dandruff and had a flash bleed this morning (thankfully this has stopped now).

When she scanned me I was nearly in tears, she was so rough and couldn't find anything! No one has had a problem scanning me other than it is sometimes tender. She eventually found my cyst was still there, but my uterine lining is about 8mm and so thick enough.

After the nurse speaking to the doctor and another nurse, it was decided we will go ahead with the FET! I do my last lupron injection this evening and then start my progesterone suppositories tomorrow! My FET will be going ahead on Thursday if all continues to be well.

In less than a week I will be PUPO as long as I do not bleed again and my two frosties thaw ok. I realise they are both still big if's. Please let this work this time.

Help I am bleeding

I am meant to be having a scan in a couple of hours but I have started bleeding!?! Why? What does this mean. I guess I will be cancelled. So upset. Why oh why? Why is AF here, she is not welcome

Scan tomorrow but not feeling well

I am hoping that my lining is looking good and I will get my date for my frozen embryo transfer.

Problem is, I have what I lovingly call the shits and spits. At lunch time today I had to sit on the loo with a bowl on my lap as my guts decided to empty themselves both ways (sorry, TMI!!) and I stayed there for about three hours! Five hours later I am feeling a bit better but a little delicate. Hopefully this will go for my scan tomorrow

I am trying hard to not even think about my FET and try to take a bit more of a relaxed approach. I was so uptight and stressy for my last IVF cycle and we all know how that ended. Maybe the whole 'if you just relax' and throw in some pills, injections and a FET, you make get pregnant theory might work this time!!

Counting down the days

until our FET. Today is day 4 of meds. I find that doing injections helps to pass the time! It is still a boring wait but the injections seem to make it go a little faster!

I am having a few side effects, mainly headaches, bloating and very bad upset guts again. I am managing, I would do anything for us to get our baby.

I go back in on Friday for my scan to check the thickness of my lining and then will get the official date for the FET, but think it will be Thursday 30th September.

Thanks to all for the words of encouragement and good luck to all who are cycling or PUPO at the mo! Lets hope its BFP's this time round!