IF is private

I visitied a great blog earlier about privacy. Click here to read it. It was all about why people keep IF private. below is the comment I left.

I keep IF private due to a number of reasons, poss all you have listed above! Its none of your buisiness, fear, do not want to continuously talk about it, do not want to hear all the usual cliches e.g. ' if you just relax' etc.
I have opened up to a couple of friends and that has helped a litte. DH's parents and grandparents vaguely know we have IF issues, how ever that does not stop them keep usking us when we are going to have kids. If people that know can be so insensitive, then there is no point telling everyone else as the insensitivity will continue regardless.
I am not telling people that we are going through IVF other than 2 close friends. This is mainly because I do not want people keep asking questions, staring at my belly expectantly, I do not want to dissapoint everyone if I do not get pregnant. I can not cope with everyone else's pain when I will be dealing with mine and DH's.
People at work are already speculating though, one person actully mentioned to someone else that they think I am going through IVF. How the hell do they know? I have only just found out and got my dates. I dont even start until July!
Privacy makes it easier, I think.....

Learning to crochet

As the title suggests, I am desperately trying to find something to keep me and my mind occupied. 10th July is when I start my injections, and that seems so far away. I am learning to crochet. I have started on a blanket. It is a bit wonky, it is not very good, but it is definetly keeping me busy. It shall be for when I have a baby. I shall continue to crochet blankets and poss other things untill I have a baby. I may well have a whole house full of yarn and items, but I am hoping not!!

Do any of you crochet? Do any of you have tips and any patterns that are good for beginners but look more effective than just a simple double stitch blanket!

I hate being in limbo. Nothing much to talk about, nothing, much to report. I am on the pill, waiting to start IVF. The wait is killing me!

Last weekend DH an I went away for 3 days. It was our 2 year wedding anniversary and we stayed in a nice little hotel and spent some time togther. Was nice to get away, be with each other and have a break before the stress of the next few months.

About me - ICLW

I realise I am a little late, but here is a little about me and my IF journey:

• I am 26, a veterinary surgeon
• I have hypothyroidism and endometriosis
• I have had 3 laps
• we have been TTC on and off for nearly 2 years
• I have 1 blocked tube and the other doesn't look great!
• we are starting our first IVF cycle in July
• I desperately want a baby but for mow have 2 fur babies- maddy and scamp my 2 rescue dogs

My schedule at last!!!

The nurse rang me yesterday and I now have my schedule!! She will type it out and send it in a letter, but here is what she told me:

10th July: Start 50 units seprecure once a day
16th July: Stop the pill
21st July: Baseline scan and start 300 units Gonal F once a day
28th July: 2nd scan
30th July: 3rd scan
31st July: ovadril trigger shot
2nd August: Egg retrieval
5th August: Embryo transfer!!
2 weeks of progesterone suppositories
2 weeks later: POAS (hopefully a BFP!!)

I cant believe that 2nd of August I will be PUPO! (pregnant untill proven otherwise!!)

This is really happening, I am going to be doing IVF, I may get pregnant!

Today I went and had a manicure and a pedicure as a treat. I spent my birthday money on me for once. I am going to try to be healthy and exercise and get my body in shape a bit, but not go too crazy. I am also going to look after my mind and body
a bit. Maybe have a massage just before I start my injections.

I am so freeking excited!! I cant wait for the 10th July. I realise injections will be shit etc, but I am on my way to getting a baby ifallgoeswell

Where is my bloody schedule?!?

Had an appointment with a nurse to get my schedule today and I was not given it. Grrrr! That was the whole point of the appointment. DH and I had our blood taken to check for HIV, hepatitis etc and thats about it.

They are trying to get me to que jump a little and so they will call me by the end of the week for my dates. I have however got a idea of what drusg and doses. i will post the proper schedule when I have it

Carry on taking microgynon pill
50 units of boserilin once a day
Base line scan
Gonal F 300 units once a day.

Thats it for the mo. What do you guys think about the dosages? I have been told that I have been put on a higher dose of Gonal F to try to prevent me not responding and a cancellation.

I thought I would leave very excited, instead I left fealing deflated. At least they are trying to get me in as soon as possible. It will be towards the end of July at the latest apparently.

Looking forward to getting my schedule!

I am struggling to contain my excitement! I am really looking forward to Wednesday, meeting the nurse and getting my schedule for my IVF!

My boss is still being nice to me and being supportive. Normally he is a complete idiot, rude most of the time and mean. For him to ask me how I am doing and tell me not to worry, it will be all ok, is amazing!!

My bleeding has finally stopped and I am slowly counting down the days until I get my schedule!

I am getting ahead of myself. I keep imagining myself pregnant, keep working out what my due date could be if I got PG and even compiling a secret list of baby names I like!! This is not good. If it fails it will destroy us like any normal couple but the hope I am giving myself, the image of myself being pregnant, its going to crush me if this does not work.

Not sure why I am bleeding (TMI!)

I had my period last week, was painful etc. I then started back on the pill on Friday and all was fine for a couple of days. On Monday afternoon I noticed a brown bloody discharge, though nothing of it and sort of ignored it. It has got progressively worse since then. It is like the end of a period blood. I am not in any pain, everything with me is normal except for this slight bleeding.

Why is this happening? Is it because of the pill?

I have my IVF schedule appointment on Wednessday. If it continues I shall try to speak to someone then.

I told my boss today that I will be going through IVF in July. He was strangely Ok about it and supportive! I am going to try to keep it a secret. How many of you decided to be open about IVF and how manay managed to keep it secret?