PUPO!

Had my transfer a couple of hours ago. They put both back in as the second blastocyst was showing signs of life which is good! The transfer this time was great. I had a different doctor and he scanned me at the same time as putting the catheter in and I watched the air bubbles go in with the two embryos. Was very cool!!

I am now hopefully and excited at the moment. I know this 2ww week will be up and down as normal. My test date is the 11th October and again I do not have a beta, just pee on a stick and call them with the results which is crap!!

I so hope this works. I have one great blastocyst and I semi OK blastocyst, if at least one could stick that would be amazing!!

Clinic called...

.... with some good news! One embie has definitely survived the thaw. The other is a bit 'ify' at the moment but they will keep watching and will most prob stick it back in as well as there is nothing to lose!! I am so pleased we have something to transfer!!!

Now have to wait a couple of hours before I go in for the transfer. I have had to call in 'sick' today for work. I feel so bad, I hate screwing people over, but a baby is far more important that work!!

In a few housr I will be PUPO!! Bring on the 2ww!!

FET tomorrow!!

I am so excited and nervous!! The clinic called to confirm they were defrosting both of my embies tomorrow morning. I should have a call by 10am to confirm they have survived and then should be going in about 1pm for the transfer!!

This cycle has been a rocky ride, I hope that means the ending will be good and we get to transfer both and that they stick!!

I wish to say congratulations to my last IVf cycle buddy Julia for her BFP!! I am so pleased for you! I really hope that means we will both be PG togther! Hope this is my cycle as well!!

Another scan! An Endometrioma

I called my clinic this moirning about my flash bleed on Saturday. I managed to get another scan. My lining is looking good at 8.4mm and there is no fluid in my uterus. It looks like my 'cyst' on my left ovary is a endometrioma which keeps bleeding.

Apparently the endometrioma and the random bleeds will not affect my FET and implantation. I want to believe this but I am still worried that this cycle is doomed from the start.

I have been told I need to rest. What does that mean? Is it stict bed rest or light duties or what? The nurse didnt say and I forgot to ask, had so many other things on my mind.

Anyone have a endometrioma that has not been a problem with getting pregnant? What kind of rest if any were you put on?

When will this rollercoaster end? I really hope it ends in a BFP! Not sure how much more stress and up and downs I can take!

Not another bleed....

I cant believe I am having another bleed like the one yesterday morning. It seems to have nearly stopped but I am panicking. Why am I bleeding? What does this mean?

Should I cancel the FET as this just does not feel right?

DH said to me this evening: 'maybe because this cycle is going badly it will end in positive becuase last cycle was nearly perfecvt and it ended in a negative'. I replied 'sadly life does not work that way!' Bless DH for trying to stay hopeful when I am not feeling any hope.

To top things off my dog Maddy is poorly sick, got gastritis I think, hope its nothing more major.

Scan went ok(ish)

Had a different nurse today (again) and so had to explain my history again. She asked me how I was doing and I told her not good. I had bad guts, losing my hair, bad dandruff and had a flash bleed this morning (thankfully this has stopped now).

When she scanned me I was nearly in tears, she was so rough and couldn't find anything! No one has had a problem scanning me other than it is sometimes tender. She eventually found my cyst was still there, but my uterine lining is about 8mm and so thick enough.

After the nurse speaking to the doctor and another nurse, it was decided we will go ahead with the FET! I do my last lupron injection this evening and then start my progesterone suppositories tomorrow! My FET will be going ahead on Thursday if all continues to be well.

In less than a week I will be PUPO as long as I do not bleed again and my two frosties thaw ok. I realise they are both still big if's. Please let this work this time.

Help I am bleeding

I am meant to be having a scan in a couple of hours but I have started bleeding!?! Why? What does this mean. I guess I will be cancelled. So upset. Why oh why? Why is AF here, she is not welcome