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Thank you so much to Katie who nominated me for this award! I have never been nominated before and it has really cheered me up!!!

Now I have to choose only 8 wonderful blogs to pass this award on to..."These blogs are exceedingly charming. These kind bloggers aim to find and be friends. They are not interested in self-aggrandizement. Our hope is that when the ribbons of these prizes are cut, even more friendships are propagated. Please give more attention to these writers. Deliver this award to eight bloggers who must choose eight more and include this cleverly-written text into the body of their award!"



I am going to nominate people who have been kind to me, being the new girl to blogging and TTC. They have left supportive comments, some have become followers and have been supportive even though I am not very far along my TTC journey compared to a lot of people. I have not felt judged and I feel less lonely now which is a great thing so thank you all! Of course every one who has stopped by have been very supportive and that is what is so great about blogging. I feel we have a great community.

So here they are:

1. Mrz. Hannah Myhre @http://hannahmyhre.blogspot.com/ - she is just starting her IVF journey, she has been very friendly, supportive and encouraging, thank you and good luck, following you all the way!


2. Strong blonde @http://strongblonde.wordpress.com/2009/02/17/umwhat/ - has just found out she is PG so keeping everything crossed that all goes well


3. Jenn @http://jenn-e-fursoasis.blogspot.com/ - who is due in 34 days time. She has always left helpful comments


4. Just me @http://canyouimagine123.blogspot.com/ - who is so in love with her DH, its great and she manages to remain positive so much of the time which is a great inspiration


5. Christa @http://endoandfertility.blogspot.com/ - who has a beautiful baby Ella and is battling with endometriosis like myself


6. Katie @http://k8ejohnson.blogspot.com/ - who leaves great comments and makes me laugh when I read her blog (in a good way!)


7. Misty @http://robertsdawn.blogspot.com/ - who leaves helpful comments


8. Grade A @http://aqualityegg.blogspot.com/ - who has just had some wonderful news

Relaxing day but still down

Spent the morning doing housework and walking my dog. This afternoon I have been catching up on some TV, watching House and reading blogs. To top it all off, my lovely dog has been snuggled up on the sofa with me sleeping, making me feel loved! Obviously the sofa is warm and I am comfy to lay on but I like to think its love, makes me happy that way!!


Reading every ones blogs gives me mixed emotions; joy, sadness, sympathy and hope to name a few. It is nice to read every ones journeys but it makes me wonder where my one is going? Will I get pg soon or will I be going for IVF?

Had a brief conversation with my DH this eve and I asked him why we weren't talking about the elephant in the room and he didn't get what I meant! We are not really talking about us TTC at the mo. When I got AF this time I was obviously distraught but he did not even register it as me not being pregnant. He obviously knew it meant I wasn't pregnant but he didn't say anything to me. Maybe this was because I had a break down last time an he didn't want it to happen again, or I am not sure why. He also said to me that I shouldn't worry as this is only the second month of trying! Has he not been awake or aware for the last 5 months?!?! I am getting a little frustrated at the moment as he does not appear to be worried that I am not pregnant yet and doesn't seem to care at the moment. Maybe I am wrong. He does seem to keep a lot bottled up and doesn't tell me what he is thinking about as he doesn't want me to worry. A little input from him would be nice sometimes.

Endometriosis awareness month in March

Thanks to Christa, I have been reminded it is Endometriosis awareness month in March. I am now on a mission to go shopping and purchase some yellow items for me to wear this month.

I was diagnosed with endometriosis at the age of 18 when I got rushed into hospital with a suspected appendicitis! I have always suffered from very bad periods and cramps. I remember when I was younger throwing up every cycle due to the pain, and my mum telling me off the whole time (she was so supportive and still is!!!). I was put on the pill at 16 due to my awful periods and in 2004 I had a laser laparoscopy to try to clear my endo. I have since been to multiple doctors and have put off having another lap due to me being at university, and then my graduation and now my work. I have put it off for 3 years now as it knocked me for 6 last time and not sure how I will cope with my second lap. I am however off to the specialist on 18th April if I do not fall pragnant to get me booked in for my lap.

My endo has ruled my life and I do not like it. It causes me so much pain, causes fatigue, gets me down and depressed and it is causing me to battle with TTC. I came off the pill in October after trying multiple times to come off previously but the pain has been too great. I have to say, I am not coping very well off the pill. My pain is terrible, my periods are terrible and I am a very unhappy person. I am however, so desperate for a baby I am willing to try anything now.

Coming down with something

I have been exhausted and had a sore throat all day. I think I have a bug coming which is annoying as I now have 3 days off and I will most prob spend them sleeping off a bug :(

I was planning for a bit of BD tonight just for the fun of it as it has been a while as AF lingered longer than expected. Not sure if I have the energy now! Also don't really wanna give DH the bug either!

I really want this cycle to get going. I had to POAS this morn with my clear blue fertility monitor which I thought was a bit early as is cd9 and and I normally ovulate on cd18. I am worried as I only have 10 sticks and don't really want to buy another pack as they cost £20 and then I would be giving up on this cycle already. I will not buy any more unless I really have to.

Endometriosis and hypothyroidism

I was wondering if any of you out there had endometriosis and hypothyroidism and have had a baby? I am wondering what my chances of successfully TTC are? Both of these diseases cause chronic fatigue and infertility sadly so odds are stacked against me!

I am feeling very hung over today. We went out to celebrate a friends birthday and had alittle too much drink!! I decided it was my last bit of alcool this cycle before all of the baby dancing. I didnt bargain on feeling crap all day! It was a great nigt and havent enjoyed myself that muc in a while. You do however know when you are too drunk when you suggest clubbing on a tues night!!

Other updates: none really!! Working lots, really getting into my running. Have tomorrow (thursday) left at work and then a 3 day weekend. I cant wait for the break. Have had onbe day off in the last 18 days other tan my sick day and I am exhausted! Mentally and physically! I am also enjoying ICLW week and decided that I may give iron commentor a try next cycle? We shall see. It is a great chance to get lots of coments, feel loved and find new blogs!

On a different note, I am using my fertility monitor this cycle as at least I know I ovulate etc. I will be POAS in 2 days time. Cant wait as at the moment fertility is low and am looking forward to it becoming high. Havent had sex since before my period, so that was 9 days ago now. Am really missing it, may have to jump on DH soon, but not tonight, Am so exhausted am off to bed!

Sorry for the tired ramblings!

CD6

Was working all weekend, Saturday was pretty busy, yesterday not too bad thankfully. AF has slowed now which is good. I was still feeling rubbish on Saturday but I am back to my normal self now which is good.

I am enjoying the ICLW but am struggling to keep up with reading and leaving comments. It is nice to have so many comments and readers, makes me feel less lonely in life.

It is CD6 and I am waiting for AF to finish and so the baby dancing can start. I think we may have peaked too soon last cycle as when it got to ovulation day my DH had had enough! I think this weak will be spur of the moment sex, as and when we fancy it as I don't ovulate until day 17 normally. The annoying thing is I am on duty the weekend I am due to ovulate which is annoying. I hate having sex when on duty; you can guarantee you are in the middle and the phone rings with an emergency and then I have to rush out the house and by the time I get back the moment has passed! I have worked out my fertile days for the next few cycles and my cycle after this I don't think will be successful as I am away 3 of my most fertile days but we shall see. This may be the cycle I get pregnant! One can hope!

I am not sure what my feelings are going to be this cycle. Am I going to be optomistic or pessimistic? We shall find out!

1st IComLeavWe

This is my first IComLeavWe and am enjoying it already. I thought I would be do a quick round up of me for any new people who find me through this

• I am 24 and married to the love of my life whom I started dating when I was 16, my first and only boyfriend, now DH
• I have hypothyroidism and endometriosis
• We are TTC, have had laparoscopy and many hospital appointments before getting to the point were I could cope off the BCP
• I am a Veterinary Surgeon and work extremely long hours
• I have OCD tendencies but not to the point that it controls my life
• I have a dog called Maddy whom I rescued a year ago and I do dog agility with her
• I don't really have anyone in life other than my DH. No one knows we are TTC
• I live in the UK and my parents emigrated to the USA 5 years ago and took my brother with them
• I am desperate for a baby. I want a baby more than anything in the world. I really want to have a family with my DH

This blog is mainly about my TTC journey. I try not to burden my DH with all of this so I dump it all here! I am very controlling and obsessive and analyse my cycle and my feelings!