Any chance you could be pregnant?

I hate it when you are about to have an x-ray at the dentist and then and the pregnant question comes up. For most I am sure it is just another question with hardly any meaning, for us IF's it is a stab in the heart. 'No' I respond in a light and breezy way, trying to show that the question did not hurt me, why would it hurt me.....?!?

So its been a week on the pill and all is well. I am actually feeling a bit better on the pill as the last couple of months I have been off the pill but bleeding on and off every few days throughout the cycles. No bleeding so far though.

Couple more weeks and the off to Spain and then on the crazy train! Time seems to be going slow at the moment, doesn't it always when you have thinks you are looking forward to!!

I have started the pill!

Rarely have I ever been so excited to start the pill! What this means is that I am starting the process for my FET #2. I am on the pill for a month, then a bleed, then my baseline on 20th September! I am so pleased that soon I will be back on the crazy train! Is it mad that I prefer to be on drugs and cycling that doing nothing! I guess it is the hope that I miss!

Not long now!

AF here already?!

Where has this month gone? I have been a bad blogger as not had much going on. What I can say is that this months has gone quite quickly! I seem to have my period already. Now of course I wish that I was PG instead, but I know that is not going to happen naturally. What it does mean is that I am even closer to me FET! Once AF is over I have to start on the pill, go away on holiday to spain in a few weeks, come back and then have my baseline!

Not long now!

I am still here!!

I have been MIA, mainly because work has been so busy and I have had some deadlines. I have also been dieting and running and trying to get my body in better shape.

I can now say that next month I will be doing a FET!! I cant wait to get back on the crazy train again! Until then I shall try to remain patient and keep fit!

new diet and fitness regime!

Well since getting my MS diagnosis and the go ahead for my FET in September I am determined to get back into shape. I have put on about 7lbs during this year of IVF and I am determined to lose it before next go. I started running yesterday and have been eating healthy for the last couple of weeks. I am certainly struggling with exercising and making myself want to exercise, but I will keep going with it.

I will get my body and my mind back on track. I am determined that for once something good has to happen in my life. I am hoping that something is a fit body and a baby!
I guess I should keep dreaming, but dreams is what keeps is going right?!?

September is soooo far away but.....

...... we have been booked in for our FET!! I am really excited that we finally have a goal and not in limbo so much anymore!!

My neurologist gave me the MS bombshell, but I am trying to remain upbeat and look forward to something positive (hopefully a pregnancy test!!) My baseline is booked for 20th September with a view to doing transfer on 6th October.

Please let this work, I am due some good news!

Oh yeah and AF the horrible witch played me up this month and gave me false hope, my period was 5 days late! I really thought that maybe, just maybe I was having good luck and a small miracle once in my life!

It is MS

So I got a call form my Neurologist on Monday. She said that she has had a meeting with other neurologists, discussed my case and they are all in agreement that my MRI looks very much like MS.

This was not a surprise to me, but I am still finding it a hard pill to swallow. I think I was a little in denial before and now, well I do not know really what it means for me. Will I lead a normal life, will MS take over my life. When will I get the symptoms again? At the moment I feel 'normal', but how long will that last?

I guess the only good news that can come of this is that I can can go ahead and try for a baby again. There are a few other tests that need to be run for further confirmation, but pregnancy apparently makes signs of MS go away. Now all I have to do is get pregnant! I will call the clinic and get my FET booked for September, my neurologist has given me the OK for September! It seems so long away, but I guess it is only 2 months! Gives me time to get myself into shape a little more.