Day 5 of injections

Things are going ok so far with my injections. I have one site that has become red, raised and sore but rest are fine. I have had a couple of dizzy spells and mild headaches but that's all. I am a bit bloated but think that has more to do with Christmas than anything else!!

I think so far less side effects than usual, but I am on the short protocol this time and I think having Suprecure and at same time is better.

I keep think what if this does not work? What next? I am trying to focus on this cycle but I am not allowing myself to. I think I am not allowing myself to get too hopeful as so far each one has not worked so why will this be any different? That said, it is different; different protocol and intralipids. Does this mean different outcome? I wish I knew already!!!

Too much baby talk

I have just been to a 30th birthday party and it seemed like everyone was pregnant, trying to get pregnant or thinking about trying. All everyone talked was baby as they sat there rubbing there bump's. I heard them talking baby as I sat in the bathroom mixing my meds and injecting myself twice. No one knows we are going through IVF and I felt so alone.

On a side note, I am meeting with two fellow IFers from my clinic for tea and cake tomorrow which should be good. More baby talk but we all understand and know the pain.

My meds are going ok. I have had a few belly aches, especially in my right ovary area, but I am taking that to be a good sign.
I have my monitoring scan Monday am and then acupuncture. I really hope my follies are growing!

Day 3 of injections

Time seems to be going slow. I have done 3 days of injections now and I am doing OK so far. I have had a few hot flushes, few dizzy spells, minor headaches and few mood swings, but nothing I can not deal with. I am sure the side effects will get worse with time.

I am struggling to stay positive, and hopeful. Things keep getting planned for this coming year, trips, holidays etc and I am struggling to commit. I keep thinking I will be pregnant and so not sure if I can make things. I then realise I may not be pregnant and get depressed. I now can not see passed the end of January. I will not/can not commit. I do not know what I will do if this does not work.

Where are my positive thoughts, positive mental state of mind is meant to help!!

1st injection done!

It is official, my second fresh round of IVF has started!! I have done my first injection of Suprecure (lupron equivalent). I did fine as ever with the injection, but had forgotten the slight sting. Nothing major, easy to cope with, but took me by surprise for some reason!

I so hope that this is the cycle. I am having a hopeful moment. I am sure as soon as the side effects kick in I will be feeling different!

I am excited and hopeful, but also thankful I have got this cycle on the NHS, so many patients have been denied as funding has stopped. I am one of the last NHS patients at my clinic and I am so grateful.

Please let me have a baby at the end of this.

stim update

I have one more stim injection to do tonight and then I go in for my first follie check tomorrow morning!! I am excited about the scan, excited to see if the twinges I am feeling are my follies growing. I really hope all is well.

I am having less side effects with the injections now, the diarrhoea has calmed down thankfully!

I am trying so hard not to get ahead of myself and think about my collection and transfer next week. I keep reminding myself that I could get cancelled, I may not be responding, that small amount of fluid may still be in my uterus.

DH and I had the baby name talk last night. We have agreed on a few names, but we had to stop ourselves as we were getting so excited about the thought of us having a baby (or two!) and we have a way to go yet.

Grow follies grow!!

Side effects of stims (TMI!)

So, for the last two days, I have been having bad diarrhoea. I have struggled at work, I have had to keep running upstairs to go to the toilet all day! Did any of you get this as a side effect?

I have had a few minor twinges by my ovaries, a tiny bit of bloating and headaches. Yesterday I thought I was going to faint when I was standing up operating, think I was just a bit hot and exhausted.

Five more days of stims until I have my next scan. I hope my follies are starting to grow, I hope that this will work and the side effects will calm down. I have a feeling that its only going to get worse. I am expecting more and more pain in my belly.

Sadly DH is away this weekend. I really miss him, wish he was here. I hate the fact that I am feeling needy. I am not a needy person. I just hate being on my own at the moment, my mind goes into over drive.

I am managing with injecting myself twice a night, its fine, I am coping better than I thought I would with the injecting side.

I still cant believe we are doing IVF, that I am one step closer to my baby!!

Base line scan and start stims!!

Had my baseline scan this morning. I was very nervous as worried about it being painful. Thankfully my nurse was lovely, so considerate and it hardly hurt!! She is now called nice nurse.

I have a little fluid in my uterus but most prob because I am still bleeding (hopefully, fingers crossed!!) and there are lots of small follicles on both ovaries. My right ovary is in a slightly strange position, most prob due to my endo and adhesion's. Nice nurse said at the mo the ovary is ok to get at for retrieval so hopefully that wont change.

I start my stims tonight!! I am on 300 units of Gonal-F a day and my suprecure (lupron to American's) is continuing but a slightly lower dose.

I am so excited!! We are moving onto the next stage! I am growing my follicles!! This is happening!!

6th injection

I cant believe it, but tonight I am just over halfway through my suppression injections!! I stop the pill tomorrow, should have a bleed and then have my first monitoring appointment and baseline scan on Wednessday!!

Things are OK, the injections are going OK. I have found that it hurts less to inject into the fat on the side of my thigh, rather than my belly.

Side effects are not too bad, a few hot flushes and few headaches but still nothing major which is good.

I am worried about Sunday as I have a family party and will need to take my injection with me. I am not sure where I am going to store it or how I am going to sneak off to give it. Hopefully I will be able to work something out, or just leave a little early to be home by 10pm to give it.

On a side note: DH is trying to be helpful and supportive but he cant watch me do the injections! He turns his head away each time! I have asked him if he would inject me, but sadly not!! I hope that I manage to stay strong and am able to keep doing the injections myself! I am worried if the next lot will be bigger or hurt more and I may struggle!

So far so good... 18 days untill my egg retrieval!!! 21 days untill pregant untill proven otherwise!!

Its getting easier

Second injection was a lot better than the first. I did not hesitate, I swabbed and stabbed! There was less pain with the injection but a little more stinging when I pushed on the plunger. Its fine though, I can do it easily, it will lead me to my baby!

I am not having any side effects yet which is good, I am wondering when they start? Third injection is tonight so I guess it will take time. I will be more than happy if the side effects never kick in, but I think that maybe wishful thinking!!

This injection thing is great, it gives me something to do, it helps me to tick the days off, its better than waiting around doing nothing....

1st injection done!!

At 10pm this evening I gave myself my 1st injection! I was nervous. My skin is tougher than expected and it hurt a little as the needle went in. I now have a small mark on my skin it may bruise as I wasn't happy with my technique as I was nervous. I will be better tomorrow night.

This is really happening! I have started my IVF!!!!

I start my injections tomorrow!!!!

I can't believe it, I have been waiting for tomorrow for what feels like forever and all of a suddenly is nearly here!!

I am very nervous about giving my 1st injection, I am not very good when it comes to doing things to myself. I am a vet, I do loads of injections everyday, just not to myself!!

Any hints and tips to stop bruising and pain would be great.

A reflective post (yay! Lol!) may follow shortly. Just wish to document my feelings on my journey so far.

Did I mention I am so excited!!!